Do you ever like someone so much that it hurts? The fact that you can never have them kills you so much inside, that you feel like you're going to break. I feel like this every day. I see him everyday and my heart beats a little faster, my stomach twists a little. I haven't felt this feeling in a while. I love this feeling, and I hate it. His presence alone makes you smile, and he looks cute as usual. His smile could light up a room... It did light up the room... He makes me laugh, and he makes me mad. I can't focus in class... I can't focus at work. All that I can think about is the what-ifs. They're all silly of course. Silly feelings, that lay a huge weight on my heart strings. But you can't help but think of them. I would love to make him the happiest he could be. I can't of course, however. He does not see it. And who knows if he ever will. For now my brain is very loud.
