*PLEASE READ* (MY STORY DEALING WITH SUICIDE LOSS) With the pandemic raising suicide rates I wanted to share something with you all, as most of you know if you've been reading my book for a while, September of 2019 I lost one of the people that I thought I could never lose, sadly one of my friends passed away, he had lost his battle with depression, and took his own life. It hit me like a train, i felt as though it was my fault because of the fact that we werent exactly ok the best terms before it happened. I was too sad to get out of bed, I was a shell of a human and I felt like I could never be happy again. Through the last year and a half, I have gone through ups and downs, I have struggled with anxiety, and feelings of hopelessness. But I know that I will get through this eventually, I never knew I had this much strength and resilience in me, and I want you all to know that though you may feel alone, the world needs you, the world needs your ideas, the love you have in your heart, and no one would be better off without you here. And though it may not seem like it, you are so incredibly strong, and though it seems like you've been fighting for so long, and this pain is too much to handle, but trust me, you will get through this, just take it one day at a time. I saw something that really clicked with me, it said think about everyone who will need you in the future, your kids need their mom/dad/parent, your spouse needs their other half, even your future pets need you. You are not alone❤