I feel like giving up. I really wanna go and walk out infront of a car so it looks like an accident. I really wanna end all this pain and suffering but I think the only thing stopping me is that what if I fail? What if I survive? I don't think I could deal with the consequenses of trying to commit suicide and failing. Having my family pity me, having everyone pity me and the possibility of being sectioned. That's all that's stopping me right now.....