MyMoonAndMyStars

ahh!

I crave to hear your voice
          To hear the beautiful laugh
          And see you glorious smile
          The way your eyes
          Just shine like the morning sun
          Because that all
          Fixes my broken heart
          Until I call
          And see it all just,
          Break apart again

I've left messages now
          For you'd never answer
          If I wanted to talk to you 
          It'd be and an answering machine 
          Knowing you'd listen on the other end
          But is this love
          Is that any real relationship 
          I miss hearing you
          But do you miss
          When I'd never call

Are men all the same
          With the rocky exterior 
          No way to see a lie
          When it's put right in front of you 
          Are men, don't miss being bloomed
          Like a flower you'll be 
          Though only around a certain few
          Are men are they just going to hide away
          Flowers can still bloom through rocks
          Only if the space is given
          For something new
          Are men will you make the space?

I pour my thoughts
          My raw soul
          The truth in my heart
          Out into a place where
          You'll soon read
          And I hope 
          It'll mean even a fraction 
          Of what you mean to me
          To you 

Even in a group
          With questions addressed straight to you
          I can't get a pep
          Not a single word
          Am I not worth a single breath to you
          You're worth all of mine
          And I wish I could rely on more than an inhaler
          Because I meet you 
          

My heart was red and full of love
          Until the depths of blue from the heartbreak you brought
          Turned it deep dark purple
          And no amount of love will ever make me red again
          I'll always be stained purple
          From the blue of the pain you caused

I keep writing 
          Oh how I can't wait for school
          To see you every day
          Not to have to worry about being too busy to call or say hello
          But I'm sure when you think of school starting 
          It's not for me or the ache in your heart to see me like I have for you
          But rather the regret of school even existing
          Some days I believe you miss me
          Others I know I'm a fool for even trying in the first
          To believe we were the same in love 

Is it wrong of me to miss you. 
          It's not wrong for others to not miss you. But when they do you're even happier. 
          But when I miss you. 
          It only seems like a chore
          For you to even bother 
          And just hello to the girl who misses you
          And loves you with all her heart 

I found myself 
          In a tight wound nook
          I was in love with my heart
          And not sure in my head
          So with a leap of fate
          I went ahead and said
          I think you may just be
          The one for me