Hello, children of the universe.
If a Brinkley screams into the galaxy, bleeding and screaming, with all these words in her heart that bleed out, and the ones that are trapped inside, and there seems to be no one there to hear her, does she make any sound at all? Or is she just another dying nebula in a sea full of stars, trying so hard to shine bright, but is always dim?
Nothing exciting has been happening in my little writer-bubble. I'm starting to write character sketches for Pom-Pom, and I get new ideas all the time, but I want to write something worth reading, you know?
The most popular stories nowadays always seem to be something like "The Bad Boy Teacher Who is also a Player Who is also a Nerd Who is also a Gang Leader Bought Me a Prom Dress and also Broke Into My House and Came Onto Me." Even when the titles don't go like that, the stories are always cliched, and they present sexual harassment as something romantic.
I know that there are some stories that aren't like this. And there is a way to become a popular writer who writes beautiful, nuanced, realistic and vivid stories. I don't know how some of my favorite Wattpadders (solacing, ChasingMadness24, beautlies, nosekissed) do it.
I just--in the midst of all these BIG VOICES writing crappy 5 Seconds of Summer fanfic and trope-riddled romances--I feel lost in the shuffle.
You don't have to read my stories. Read about playboy nerds who are in the mafia getting girls pregnant or whatever the next big thing is on Wattpad. It's just been killing me that I've been missing out on so many great writing opportunities, and I want to talk to SOMEONE.
For now, I'll just stand here, a nebula in the midst of a greater universe, and keep on screaming. And maybe one day, one glorious day, I will make a sound.