MyNameIsReality01

Umm, hi. I know we haven't talked much, but you okay? 

Visiting my grandparents' house and spending the night. There is a CHAINSAW in the guest bedroom.
          
          I am either a well-protected ace or a person who is very much in danger.

Holy CRAP, I haven't been on Wattpad in a WHILE. School has been really keeping me busy. I'm dreading looking through those 255 notifications.

Thanks for the follow! 

 Happy Aromantic Spectrum Awareness Week, everyone!!! 

(Last one, I swear)
          
          Why are so many of the Valentine's candies so TERRIBLE? It might just be me, but some of them feel like a straight up OFFENSE to all forms of love everywhere. Why can't any of them get the taste of caramel right? I don't think it's that HARD. Valentine's chocolates always have that SPECIAL LITTLE TOUCH to them that makes me HATE my favorite kind of candy for one whole day of the year. Sometimes I'll get a box of chocolates, and if I recognize the company that made it and know for a fact it's terrible, I just chuck it. Straight (or aroace) into the trash; sometimes even the
          
          trashcan in their house (not to be mean). Valentine's Day is a disgrace to chocolate (love those boxes of Kit-Kats though).
          
          Since when is it romantic to recieve dying flowers? Sad. Very sad. Putting those cut stems in water only prolongs their suffering. Also, why do people like to use the "rose and thorns" analogy? Why is it romantic to hate on/nitpick your partner's flaws? Why focus on the "thorns" of romance... if romance even exists?
          
          As a Valentine's gift to myself this year, I've been working out. I want to build a slight bit of muscle and I just wanna be a little healthier. I know that given my romantic orientation, I'm probably going to live alone. Thus, I'll need to have the ability to lift heavy objects by myself and not feel like I'm dying when I move a bed a couple of inches. I've already been seeing some results (muscles on my arms are a little bit bigger than they were previously). Anyway, sometimes, when I look up stuff related to exercise (I only started several days ago), I come across articles about why women shouldn't be muscular and how women with visible muscles aren't attractive. Who asked these losers if it was? Honestly, some people...
          
          Doesn't it feel like a waste of fabric to sew a heart into a perfectly good bear's arms? Now they're stuck holding that thing for eternity (or until someone cuts it off).
          
          Anyway, that's it for me. Aros, let's talk!

(Couldn't fit every thought in one announcement, so here's more. I'm SERIOUS about starting this conversation.)
          
          And what's the deal with allos almost always telling you that "it'll all be alright, you'll find THE ONE one day," whenever I tell them that I'm glad to be single on Valentine's Day? It's almost as if I told them that my CATS DIED or something. Why do people assume you're some kind of tortured soul or something if you don't have a partner? Do they think I'm lying when I tell them that I'm happy by myself? Also, why do other allos get so offended if you tell them that you're glad to be single and tell them that you think Valentine's Day is kinda dumb? It's not like I insulted their mother or anything, but they still take it as a personal attack.
          
          Is it cringe that I sent aro Valentine's cards to my friends one year? Sometimes I still dwell on that. They were... alright... but looking back at them, the jokes on them feel kinda flat (don't ask what they say bc I'm honestly so embarrassed rn).
          
          Why is Cupid still an acceptable symbol of love? It's a naked, flying baby. That shoots people. Also, said baby apparently does a TERRIBLE JOB, because if you look back at various television shows, they've made SOOOOOOOO many mistakes. Cupid should be fired.
          
          If romance doesn't exist, does that mean that aromantics don't exist... or does that mean that everyone is aromantic to some degree?
          
          Is it bad that I take some pride and joy in being able to turn people down when they ask me out? Seriously, does taking a slight bit of joy in breaking hearts make me a bad person?
          
          There should be more representation for aros so we can get some merchandise around Valentine's Day. Also, there simply needs to be more representation so allos stop pitying us and treating us like we're afflicted with some sort of progressive chronic illness.
          
          Why are arguments between romantic partners so stupid? 
          
          Why does it feel like Hallmark movies are crack for old ladies?

I'm dreading tomorrow like the plague.
          
          VALENTINE'S DAY.
          
          It's not that I HATE Valentine's Day, per se, but it just leaves me to dwell on my aromanticism, and seeing all the love and all the couples (most of which are doomed to fail) doesn't help. My friends wanted us all to go somewhere this weekend, but they canceled so they could spend time with their respective partners. 
          
          I'm PROUD to be aro, but being the only person I know irl who doesn't experience romantic attraction makes me feel....
          
          Alone.
          
          So, to combat this awful feeling on this terrible day that's quicky approaching, let's start a conversation. I want the focus to be on aro stuff, but it can be about whatever, honestly! I just want to provide a place where we can talk/rant about our thoughts and frustrations so we all feel less alone.
          
          I'll go first and type out thoughts that usually come to my mind around Valentine's Day:
          
          I can sometimes get squishes (strong desire to be someone's friend) that are so powerful that they confuse me to no end. I'll want to cuddle with them, but then I think about how that can't possibly be a simple squish, and then I doubt myself for a bit before going back to normal, but it makes me think: What IS the difference between romance and friendship? Is romance all just a social construct? Queerplatonic relationships can contain so many aspects of "romance" without there being any romantic feelings between their participants. If there are friends out there that raise children, get married, live together, cuddle, kiss, other... stuff, etc. without there being any romance, then what IS LOVE (in that sense)? Is it all just made up?
          
          Then I think about the intensity behind society's views on getting married, finding the "right one", etc., and it honestly makes me feel bad for the allos. They've got the mindset that love is the answer; so much so, that almost everything they do is based around it. The constant chase has to be tiring.

So it's Spirit Week at my school, and today (technically yesterday) was Dress Up As Your Favorite Holiday Day. I considered putting on Halloween stuff, but decided it wasn't worth the effort to fish it all out, so I went with the next best thing (and very, VEEERRYY CLOSE second):
          
          ACE WEEK.
          
          I walked into school fully dressed in ace apparel (except for the black jeans and gray, white, and black cat socks I had on, but they fit with my theme anyway). I had on my ace "N♤PE" hoodie, ace cat shirt, faux leather ace bracelet, ace ring, and ace cake necklace. I even considered wearing my ace flag (for a second time) as a scarf to school, but wasn't ready to commit to such a level of discomfort.
          
          Saiki, Todd, comic Jughead, and Spongebob would be proud. Garlic bread and cake would be proud. The dragons back in the motherland would be proud. Today, I was a very, VERY LOUD and PROUD individual.
          
          My message to you today: Be proud of who you are and what makes you YOU; no matter what anyone might think.
          
          You'll feel so much better.
          
          
          ****Also, a quick reminder that Aro Week is lasting through February 20th-26th this year, so don't forget.****

Cats so cuute