MySelfThatIdk
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Ik like probably no one will see this and this is probably pointless to send this out bc I'm not on Wattpad that much anymore but like I've been thinking about this for a while so might as well say it @_@ I kinda miss being able to read fancition, like not only reading fanfiction but also being able to stay up late at night on school nights while listening to Rebzyyx and Duster and being fine the next morning, I literally cannot do that anymore bc of how much I fucked myself up in 6th grade Im literally in 9th grade rn and cant properly function without 8-9 hours of sleep but would read gay hot smut while saving lives in 6th grade and get 4 hours of sleep Im also in drumline and they take it very seriously so I'm always busy, I'm kinda forced to have a good lifestyle, I have to get good sleep and eat well and make sure I don't get sick and have a good mentality and work out so I don't trip and fall because of my 20 pound drum I can carry. I also have an amazing girlfriend, which we started dating like a year and half ago, finally having what I was reading and yearning for 2 years before bc of my ex xp ig what I'm saying is that I actually got a life and one where I had to better myself, so I haven't got time to read fanfiction at all, but I still love my gay ass yaoi when I do try to read fanfiction it feels like a chore but Im still deprived of yaoi.. is that like weird?? I think its confusing ash @_@ God why am I even typing this.. I haven't even read smut in a while which is really crazy, I remember searching for smut I haven't read yet for Davesport and Komahina (and Michael x Ennard shit but we don't mention that..) for 25 minutes and genuinely tweek out if I couldn't find new smut, and now I'm more than fine AM I HEALED BUT WANT THE OLD SHITTY LIFE BACK?? I should seek a therapist.. erm pls tell me someone else relates to this bc no one ik irl is like this and genuinely curious if its just me xd TAKE CARE TEHE
