MyStay_inthebuilding

Rant 2 
          This one is about hard stans and soft stans. It's not going to be as long as the first one.
          
          I have nothing against hard stans or soft stans. This is just my own take on body stans and my experience with hard stans.
          
          So basically it seems rare to find soft stand in the K-Pop fandom. I mean I'm the only soft stan in K-Pop club at my school, surrounded by hard stans. It's embarrassing at times, because everyone likes the things I don't like.
          
          I don't like abs
          I don't  like genitalia 
          I don't like sexualised stuff generally
           I don't read smut, because I don't want to read the content 
          
          Sometimes, it just makes me uneasy or uncomfortable so I look away. Maybe its because of my Christuan upbringing or something. I can't be too sure.
          
          To me, K-Pop idols are cute or handsome, sometimes hot but not sexy. 
          
          All in all, I'm soft and that's just how it is. because that's how I'm wired. Some people may find it weird but it's fine.  
          That's all I wanted to say.
          
          For anyone reading this, thank you for listening to my TedTalks. I appreciate it.
          
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Rant 1:
          First of relationships. I'm single and I'm happy but for some reason I feel left out at times which is natural I guess. It's common for teens to have bfs or gfs. It makes teen books and movies more interesting. Plus everyone seems to be in a relationship, whispering about gfs, bfs and what not
          
          There are many times I have wondered if I should have a relationship, but it would do me more harm than good. I'm nowhere near ready emotionally or psychologically. There's plenty of things I need to sort out.
          
          I also need to find myself and truly know who I am. I have different personas and attitudes. Then people's perspectives about me.  I need to know within myself who I am and not be influenced or swayed by others.
          
          When people judge me or point out sonething, I usually doubt myself or my view on something. It seems I try to agree with what they're saying, and I end up getting confused. 
          
          I'll doubt my intelligence or if I'm likely to succeed. I compare myslef to those around me and think my life is less interesting than theirs. 
          
          Sometimes my life seems unsatisfying and I can get bored with life pretty easily. But people have it worse or better off than me. I need to learn to be content with what I have and appreciate the things in live I enjoy.
          
          Also, I want to wait until I'm 25 to have a bf. By then I'll be educated, employed and financially stable. I would of matured and be able to handle the emotions and responsibilities of a relationship better than I would know. 
          
          I don't want to be another girl on a boy's list, like a trophy or end up heartbroken over someone, crying my eyes out over someone and wasting my time, breath and effort
          
          I could date freely and not in secret, because I'm not allowed to date due to my parents. 
          
          If anyone is in a similar position, don't feel alone. Many of us are out there waiting for the right time to date.
           You're not alone. 
          We're all in this together.
          
          If you want to chat about it feel free to message me here on Wattpad

Happy New Year!! 2020's gonna be great!

Merry Christmas everyone!! ❤

We  Woojin
          
          It's been four days since the news came out, and I woke up to it, first thing in the morning
          
          I didn't believe the news at first, and then I thought if Woojin was leaving that it would only be temporary. I thought that it was fake, until I saw the statement from JYP.
          
          A lot of thoughts ran through my mind. That they wouldn't be 9 anymore. Would anyone replace him? Would he become a soloist? 
          
          I cried in outbursts, but my stomach hurt so I couldn't really cry. I also didn't want anyone to know I was crying. 
          
          It was a great shock, and I was sad. Just WHY did he have to leave. I'll never be able to see all 9 perform. Never see Woojin in another comeback or album or hear his voice. Or see him get more screentime or Woochan or at events or memes or fan meetings. 
          
          But I'm glad I got to experience OT9, even for the short 4 months and 6 days I've been a stay for. I wish Woojin all the best. If he's happy and healthy leaving SKZ, I support his decision. I wouldn't want Woojin to be sad and hurting or be bothered by whatever it was that caused him to leave and still be in SKZ.
          
          WE LOVE YOU BABY BEAR.
          WE WANT YOU YOU KNOW THAT WOOJIN.
          
          You are so talented, with your amazing voice that is going to shake-up the K-pop industry if you wish to be a soloist.
          
           Thank you for all the memories you have given STAYS for the past two years. 
          
          Thank you for blessing us with your voice, behaviour, smile and love of chicken. 
          
          I'm glad I got to hear your voice as a member of SKZ and witness Woochan. I'm glad that you're my bias wrecker and you always will be. 
          
          Once again, than you Kim Woojin
          
          OT9 FOREVER LIVES ON.
           WOOJIN IS A PART OF SKZ FOREVER. THEY'RE BOND CANNOT BE BROKEN.
           O.T.9
          
          SKZ + Kim Woojin + STAY FIGHTING ❤✊✊❤
          
          We will stay with SKZ + Woojin for all of time. We will never stray. They need our support a lot now
          
          It will always hurt, but it will get better over time. I know I'll be strong enough to get through it and so will SKZ AND STAY

Hi everyone. 
          
          I just want to let you know I'll be inactive for a few weeks, because of the news about Woojin leaving SKZ and I have tests coming up in school. I need a break to clear my head a bit. Also, it just doesn't feel like it's right to update my fanfic at this moment in time.

Please tell me, I'm not the only one who cried over Day6's trailer for The Book of Us:Entropy 

Thank you for the follow ^^