So yesterday I was in class we I heard some really terrible news. I found out one of my really really close friends and formal lover, Jose (not giving his last name), killed himself last Sunday, 1/8/17. This is really hard for me to write and even harder for me to go through, but I don't want anyone else to go through what I'm going through right now. Please, I'm begging you if you are suicidal in anyway please reach out to someone anyone. Because someone out there cared for you, you might think they don't but they really do. I don't want anyone in my pain or in the pain he was in. So please, I'm begging you all, don't take your life. No parents, sibling, friend, or spouse should live through losing a loved one through anything, but especially not through suicide. So please just contact anyone and tell them how you feel. I would be willing to help you out in anyway I can. If it meant saving a life I would, I wish he would've came out and texted or called me. And this also shows that anyone is like this. I would've never thought he would've done this. I knew he had mood swings but I didn't know he would've ended his life. I wish I could've talked to him one last time and told him that I loved him and I was there for him if he needed me. So please, just contact anyone I'm sure that they would love to help you out.
This is for you Jose. I hope you're in a better place not having to deal with any pain. I love you and you're always going to be on my mind and in my heart. I know somewhere out there you're happier and hopefully know that I'm saying these things to you. Rest In Peace Jose.
