Well today my mother my own mother threw beer on me she chocked me and now I'm cutting myself and now I'm feeling suicidal I just want to kill myself I don't think I could call her my "mom" Anymore and she is accusing me of me and my cousin fucking each other like what the fuck is wrong with her I don't like my cousin like that now I'm starting to feel depressed is this what it feels like to be depressed?????