Mysterion

Really trying to get into new chapters of the book...

thanks to everyone who has read my book. i haven't been updating because i haven't been writing, there are things that are going on in my life that have become a huge distraction. luckily its nothing bad, tho i can feel a storm coming.  because i have good days more than bad, i just am not in the writing space to write negatively. i am not sure when i will continue writing but all i know is, i still plan to finish with the original ideas. i think about this book every day and i appreciate the few who are reading and looking forward for more chapters. thanks 

Hi! Hope you're doing well ♥️

Y'all...
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I posted a new chapter. If you read my previous "conversations/announcements" You would know I'm going through a hard time. I tried my best for this chapter and I admit, I am unsatisfied. I've been writing that chapter for at least 2 weeks. I wrote every chapter simultaneously and now it's hard for me to write. Not that I don't have any ideas because i know exactly what is gonna happen but... I just don't have the energy to write it. I am trying. I don't know when I will update a new chapter, I just don't have it in me. Thank you for reading. Mysterion 

So i had a mental breakdown so bad where I was prescribed emergency antidepressants that I got that day and luckily was able to be sent home and not committed, only because I'm over 21 and can make that decision for myself. With that said, I have a clear mind and I'm just wanting to bury myself in my story because writing Rain on Me provides me with peace and happiness I never thought I could feel. I apologize for posting that, yes I was in crisis and I appreciate everyone who reached out.. honestly am now just seeing it because I expected no one to see it, I was just venting. But, unfortunately I did really mean that I am using my story as an excuse to keep pushing, because if you don't have anything to live for, FIND SOMETHING!!! And if that ends, FIND SOMETHING ELSE!!! Writing is such a therapy and I want to thank everyone who took the time to read it because like I say, that story is not fiction at all, Michael's character is someone who I know so thank you to everyone who are reading my story because it is my healing!!!!! I love you all!!!! ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

it's tough to wake up everyday and live a life you don't want to live. when you have nothing to live for or look forward to, how sad is it when you put all your energy into a michael jackson fan fiction just to distract your thoughts of doing something you dont want to do to yourself, but probably should do just so you can find some sort of peace. i vow to myself that i will not do anything to myself or attempt to end me, at least until this story is complete. unfortunately, it is far from completion. but if i have to use a fan fiction as a meaning to live, it is worth the try.

U for the follow back sweetie , he theme is adorable ❤❤❤

i refuse to write some half ass shit that is typical just for the sake to release something, when i write , it comes from a real experience, every character is very much real as this story is inspired by real events however i also refuse to pour out my soul into a book that gets overlooked so i am done writing. 

Because Rain On Me is a real story, Michael is a person in real life , the events happening right now and my current mood, I feel like will inspire an amazing chapter soon. I've had a writers block since writing the first half of the new chapter & now that I feel terrible, I have nothing to do but take that pain and write. Lollllllll