Can I just vent a little here?
Okay so you know the feeling of abandoning someone, I got traumatized by it when I was still 9 years old, I left my childhood best friends without saying anything that I was moving to another province because I was too overwhelmed and confused about my situation, I left them without a word and I made one of them cry for a week because I was gone, I left my other friends after moving schools at that same province (maybe leaving some of them was a relief because some of them were toxic and I've started developing their behavior, dw I am correcting myself and still do bcz I am afraid of being a toxic person) but still I left them (the better ones).
Jealousy issues, I am trying to correct this behavior as well but sometimes I can't stand seeing my best friends having fun with another one who supposedly "replaced" my position, I am afraid that they will not value me anymore and replace me for another one who is far more better than me.
Afraid of failing my subjects and tasks,
Do you ever get that feeling that yes, you have passed a quiz or a test but then looked at your score and just think that you could've done better, I have kept this mindset at a young age so I constantly pressure myself.