I couldn't sleep last night! I barely had enough sleep at all. And today is january 3, 2019! CLASSES UGH! I miss my school and the fun there but also I am very lazy to hit the shower before 11. My brain isn't ready and ofc my handwriting is a mess pa. I'm also kinda nervous because of what happened to me this vacation. I had a lot of problems honestly that keeps me from updating my stories because my happy spirit is slowly being taken awaay. That issue was very terrifying and I'm overthinking so much about it. About how people would think about me despite of it being not true at all. I'm kinda nervous, do you think I can make it alive? Lol, as if they are zombies! HAHA! So yeah pray for me folks HAHAHAH. Btw, I'm sitting on the floor atm because it's sittable. Who doesn't love sitting on the floor cmon! I'll tell you guys about this person of mine (lol) recently changed his acc's password and said to me that he needs a privacy for the mean time. And I was "okay, that's fine." cuz i'm chill and i trust him (oh god) But I'm kinda overthinking (As always) because he never do that to me. And we are almost together for a year, what's the privacy he should be ashamed for? I really don't get the concept of privacy in relationships. enlighten me. Because if there are things that you and your partner are open of, then why hide it? why now of all times? eh? Do you have something to hide that the other person SHOULDN'T know? Weelll, idk. It's because I really don't understand the mechanics of that privacy thing. Maybe soon I'll be used to it. I'll also change mine later. I'm also distancing myself already because of a dream. I have told that person already about my ugh dreams and he would just laugh. Tbh, I never have been received an expression of fondness from that person because I never show how I feel at all. I am twisted. Don't date someone like me hahaha. (like lol i want love but also shy to ask for, so instead i give the love!)