I'm freaking ground and my parents keep yelling at me for my mistakes, I want to kms and sh is all I can think of rn, my life sucks and my parents are making it hell, my only safe place is swim team practice and even my close friends there I don't trust with my struggles, I only trust on person and their across the country from me and since I'm grounded I cant talk to them, I have considered suicide hotline but I don't have my phone, I know I can make a chat with one of them on the website but I'm scared other people will become involved and I will get in trouble, I have never felt worse in my life. i love all of you and I hope I'm still here to keep telling you guys in he future