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Tomorrow I go back to school. I have really bad insomnia, and melatonin makes me an active suicide risk, so I'm not going to be able to sleep. During the holidays, I get the "luxury" of sleeping in (aka the only way I CAN sleep), and have to deal with being treated like shit whilst the teachers call me sensitive, and have to spend my free time doing mountains of homework while still having a life outside of school. And people (nobody, none of you read my stuff anymore) wonder why I don't post... 
          
          And the school asks why sh rates are going up

My birthday's on Monday, and my grandparents have come over to see me. ALL they want to talk about is my brother going to university. I'm so pissed off

Happy birthday to Mr Di Angelo!

Another fanfiction bit the dust. I'm probably going to stop posting all together, that's the second one of mine gone. If you think this is glorified suicide, talk to me before reporting. Please. I do not have healthy thoughts myself, so it lacks through. Just tell me. I didn't have a backup, so that is gone now. 

I'm sorry Americans 

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          Fewer things reflect our current education system, then having to take melatonin gummies even though you KNOW that it intensifies super side l feelings, because you got 3 hours last night, but we're still expected to do so much, and are currently crying on the floor, wishing you could go back in time to primary school, just before lockdown, and just rejoice in the simplicity of life without the pain and pressure.
          
          This isn't me. Nothing about what any of you know about me is me, I was never like this. Trauma made me this. There is no escape. If you are young like me, reach out while you can
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Having to go back to school tomorrow, know it's going to suck. This year I want to focus on supporting LGBTQ+ stuff, and raising awareness about various disabilities. I'm going to try and make some information packets for primary schools, I doubt that they'll use it, but that's the only way I can help at the moment.

3 minutes into 2025, and I'm already over it

I received tickets for the Percy Jackson musical, and my granddad's old aviator jacket that LOOKS JUST LIKE NICO'S! I'm so gonna cosplay him.

Happy Wednesday