hi? i know some of you will not read this..but i didnt have anyone to talk..so let me just write here...hmm..
is it okay to not be okay? idk why..but sometimes i feel my existence just make people annoy with me..maybe i just a troublesome towards them? or maybe i should die? i really wanna cry so bad. i keep struggling this..and today i cant keep it anymore..nah..people will never care about it right?
i always ask myself..did i do wrong towards other people? why people keep searching my fault..i know im not good enough..but im trying to improve myself...but no one can see my effort..everyone keeps looking at my fault..why? why? haish, im tired of this shitty things actually.. come from broken family, annoying and shitty workmates that everyone keeps looking my fault..and treat me like a piece of trash..i guess i cant make everyone like me, am i right? "its okay, nisa..you have try your best..you are doing great,sweetie" its really hard to hear that word come from their mouth or neither from my parents mouth..
nah i will never hear that..they didnt care anyways..its okay..im totally okay eventhough my heart already broke into pieces.. im sorry if you reading this...i just want to express my feelings..because i dont have any friends to talk because they will never care about me :') and here i am writing this to make me feel better.. annyeong:)