Painkiller

I think I'm back. For good this time.
          
          ...henlo frens (:

It's been 84 years.
          Aber UPDATE!!
          Am 21.02.2020 kommt THE LAST OF US PART II raus.
          And yeah.
          Außerdem! 
          Ich werde hoffentlich demnächst mal wieder etwas veröffentlichen.
          Das ist gar nicht so spannend.
          But it's my life, I guess. 

ich slide hier mal heimlich rein uwu
          danke !
          für deinen lieben kommentar auf meinem profil.
          und den follow.
          und wow -deine wundervolle art.
          i really like you bay

Is it pathetic to be heartbroken over someone you never even had? 

I always thought there was an end for everything.
          
          Like the end of a really good book you spent hours of reading. 
          Or the 3:26 minutes song you just can't stop listening to. 
          
          But there are also things that stand out due to their inability to be destroyed. 
          
          Like a small rock you've thrown into the lake and after three little jumps it sinks down onto the ground. 
          Never seeing the surface again. 
          Or the sun rising up each day. 
          Warming our hearts and our minds.
          And setting each day just to repeat the cycle some hours later.
          
          I guess I always thought that some friendships were meant to last. 
          
          I guess I always thought that some people would always stay. 
          No matter what. 
          
          I guess I was wrong. 
          
          Because human feelings have the ability to be destroyed. 

What hurts most?
          When you can't even smile over a
          funny random video
          Because it hurts
          
          It just
          
          Hurts

The struggle of a storyteller:
          
          When you meet somebody
          And
          They occupy all of your thoughts
          And
          You start making up little scenarios
          And
          Oh so slowly
          You start falling in
          Love
          With your own idea of
          Perfection. 

And Death says to Life:
          "Oh but Darling, 
          sometimes suicide is the best solution." 

Sitting in the trunk of my car. 
          The city beneath us.
          The stars above us.
          Sipping milkshakes after midnight.

"Was würdest du tun, wenn du wüsstest, du wärst unsterblich?"
          
          -"Versuchen auf jede erdenkliche Weise zu sterben."