Nashi Lynn

Ran out of space so here's the rest of the rant:
          
          "Hi I'm Saito, but only when I feel strong, independent, relaxed and helpful. Hi I'm Nashi, but only when I'm caring, only when I care too fucking much. Only when I'm allowing myself to be hurt to please others. I don't know who the hell I am and it stresses me out as the days go on. Only one other person fucking knows this because I snapped on him. I'm a shitty person and I know I am, I'm an asshole who hurts people without knowing it. I know I don't deserve to be happy that others would be happy if I took their suggestions and just killed myself. But I can't, because there are others I still want to make happy. To make smile. Even if I know they can easily replace and forget about me. But that's all fine. It's just fucking fine. And to think, all this is triggered because of a few texts.. funny right?"
          
          So...  Yeah-

So yesterday I decide, someone I was close with for almost three years left me because I couldn't make them happy and I guess I wasn't good enough. That's fine tho. But I decided to rant to my friends in a small GC we have for rants, and I always help them, but whenever I use it, which is rare, no one listens... It hurt, but that's fine. I'm gonna put the rant here so it makes a bit more sense 
          
          "I struggle with anxiety. I struggle with depression too. My sister thinks I'm bi polar and I give everyone so much of myself for their happiness where there are times I just randomly break down in silence or I just go numb. I will say it now, I'm fake. And not like the "you're a bitch I don't actually like you so I'll talk about you behind your back fake" but the "I've spent my whole life pretending to be so many different people to make others happy that I can't pick out which one is the real me anymore". All I know is the things all of my made up personalities have in common. I don't like showing weakness, I hate crying in front of others, I have body issues, my mental state is weak and I fucking love cuddles and random I love yous or kisses. That's it. That's all I know about who I was and who I am before I started pretending. I have panic attacks that are triggered easily but I know how to suppress them. The longer I suppress them the more suffocating it feels and the harder it's gonna hit later. Besides that little bit, idfk who the hell I am. I literally have a different act or personality for almost everyone. I'm always told I'm perfect as I am and to just be myself but I don't fucking know who I am, so how the hell can I be perfect? I don't even know which name I wanna use. Hi, I'm destiny, but I'm only destiny when my head starts to spin, my ears are ringing from stress,  I'm breaking down, going through a panic attack, or just any of that bs. 

ATTENTION 
          
          I would appreciate it if all of my followers read my new book, more along the lines of chapter 3
          
          "Story Time" 
          
          THIS IS NOT ONE FOR ENJOYMENT 
          
          This story is for exposing those who hurt me or friends of mine. 
          
          Thank you have a good day 
          
          -Saito out

Found uuuuuu sis I miss u and I'm turning myself in soon

Thank you for the follow ❤️

To all that read my story, I'm sorry, I've been wanting to update today and yesterday but I've been, crying
          
          My girlfriend isn't talking to me over something small. It kinda hurts. So I'm gonna go bathe and try to finish the chapter.

Hey y'all I'm baaaaaaaaaaack,so I got kicked out this account, messed the username and accidentally mad new account @NashiWolf_LifeSukz while this one is @NashiWolf-LifeSukz soooo.... Yeah I pulled a dumb but I came back and I updated my story, I'm gonna start a few more then I never got to like my other ones for harry potter and my hero academia and so on, but yeah if theirs any requests I'll be open to them. 
          
          That's all, peace y'all and stay safe.

I'm back after months, (I'm sorry) I have been getting my phone taken a lot and I've been reading a lot to get inspiration for this up coming book Wich I have narrowed down the options to the following:
          
          Aphmau character x reader
          Harry Potter character x reader
          My hero academia character x reader
          Riverdale character x reader
          Hunter x hunter character x reader
          
          These are the final five that I will be creating books for.
          
          Aphmau character= Zane. 
          Harry Potter character= Draco
          My hero academia character= Aizawa
          Riverdale character= Jug head
          Hunter x hunter= Chrollo
          
          These are the characters I will be using for the x readers and I will be creating/updating the books every day. 
          
          That's all, baiii~

Hey guys, so I had recently got a boyfriend 
          
          Anyways, I was reading a random x reader just a few moments ago because as hard as it is to believe, I wasn't busy today and didn't read 
          
          But it just felt wrong to read an x reader knowing that I have a boyfriend. Mind you he is my first actual boyfriend. I just wanted to know if that was accurate. Like does that usually happen..? 
          
          I'm new to the whole love thing and don't understand some of it. But what I do understand is that I love my lil cinnamon bun 

Thank you so much for the love and support on my story, it means very much to me!