Natalie Grace

I'm finally free sa schoolwork huhu. Pwede na all out libugan hahahaha. Well, dapat may usad din sa plot so lezzgooo drown this wife in more misery. Pero ooopps, ignorant pa pala siya. 

I loved writing the latest chapters uuughhh I noticed how wet I was as soon as I published it and I got up to use the bathroom. 

I find pleasure seeing the number of reads go up. Someone somewhere likes this twisted tale of equally twisted characters. 

Why is falling asleep so hard? 

I envy people who find it easy to get along with others. How can I even befriend people when deep down I know all I want to happen is for me to disappear?

I may be too late to realize this, but I think I've always wanted to be a writer. I want to develop such skill now, since I know I'm still not that good. But I had multiple attempts of writing stories, poetry, of course even technical and academic papers. I like the anonymity. I want to stay in a corner, away from prying eyes and just to my thing. But I'm currently in a path that I can't simply turn my back from;and it feels so heavy. Ang bigat lahat ng pasanin ko lately at parang wala akong makapitan. 

Again, I guess I'm THAT horny.

I particularly enjoyed everytime these men would call their friends over and let them watch me strip and play with myself for them. 

My first was with this guy I dated before. But it was all virtual. I'm actually actually physically still a virgin. Never been kissed either. But the naughtiest secret I keep, was that when I was still dating him, I used to go on Omegle or even through ML and hook up online with random strangers. I would bend over, show my tits and pussy, moan, even say I love yous, to these random men. 

I'm scared of dying, but I can't keep count of the times I wanted to die. Maybe I just only wanted to cease to exist? No one to remember me, no one getting hurt as I fade away. I've always always wanted to disappear, like a pop of bubble or at a snap of a finger. 
          
          I grew up easily noticed by people, so maybe that's why I yearn for the sidelines, for people to stop talking about (and to) me, for them to stop looking at me as If they know me. I just wanted to be a background side character, a person in the shadows.