Natemasta57

Hey everyone…so I was focusing on my finals and occasionally working on drafts this Christmas season when something came up.
          	
          	A few days ago my grandfather started feeling really sick and had to go to the hospital, today he had a procedure where they closed up the spots he was bleeding in his esophagus…but now the doctors are saying the real problem is with his liver and he it doesn’t look like he’s going to be around for much longer.
          	
          	I love my grandfather like I love the rest of my family and right now I want to dedicate what little time I can to speak to and be with him as well as figuring out where to go from there.

Natemasta57

Hey everyone…so I was focusing on my finals and occasionally working on drafts this Christmas season when something came up.
          
          A few days ago my grandfather started feeling really sick and had to go to the hospital, today he had a procedure where they closed up the spots he was bleeding in his esophagus…but now the doctors are saying the real problem is with his liver and he it doesn’t look like he’s going to be around for much longer.
          
          I love my grandfather like I love the rest of my family and right now I want to dedicate what little time I can to speak to and be with him as well as figuring out where to go from there.

Natemasta57

Alright everyone, I begin my internship tommorow, it’s been a long and bumpy road with lots of stress and anxiety but I’m finally here, ready to begin my first day of real work experience and get paid for it…all at the highschool I once attended.
          
          Funny how life tends to come full circle like that.

Natemasta57

Ok, as some of you know, I've been having some trouble finding an internship for the past few months, and with the fall semester approaching nows is a good time to start panicking, however I found that my college has some sort of internship program (That nobody ever mentioned to me until recently) where I submit a general application, answer some questions and proof of identity you get the idea and then they will try to match me with any internships with businesses that have partnered with the college.
          
          Now this would solve all my problems and my anxiety over the past 2 months (Still kind of pissed I'm only just learning about it, up until a few days ago the only answers I was getting were "Just keep searching you'll find one") but tommorow I have a meeting where I'm going to hand over some filled out papers and discuss the next steps and hopefully get matched with an internship.
          
          So, needless to say, I am both excited and nervous at the same time, so wish me luck everyone

Natemasta57

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Ok so this month has been pretty hectic, the fall semester is approaching and I still haven’t managed to land an internship required for my class, I did manage to find one program my college offers and was finally able to access an account that I had apparently made several years prior, but the thing closes very soon so now that’s a new thing I get to be stressed over.
          
          I swear it feels like whenever I’m starting to catch up with my work and I try to take a moment to relax everything goes to shit and suddenly I don’t have any time for myself , this whole internship situation has given me such bad anxiety that I constantly feel throughout the day that I am forgetting something important and it leaves me feeling unable to start any tasks. Nobody, I speak to can offer any help.
          
          Just tell me that I’m burnt out and stressed. I need to take some time for myself except it’s taking time for myself that has put me in this situation in the first place, now it feels like I’m just not allowed to do what I want anymore, college and life demands so much for me now that I barely have time to go on Wattpad anymore, not just to write my own stories, but to read others.
          
          I thought I was gonna be able to start writing again but now it feels like it keeps getting put off for something else that comes up.

WinDosAtmos

@Natemasta57 Hey man, we all go through the rough at some point.
            
             Go at your own pace amigo and just have fun where you can.
            
            There's no point nor meaning in writing if you feel you were forced to write.
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Natemasta57

So I've got a story for you all, yesterday I was going about my day as usual when I saw something moving in the backyard, after getting up, I realized it was a turtle, a pretty big one too (Yes it was a turtle not a tortoise) and the first thing I thought is how the heck did a turtle get here I'm not close to any lake, I checked with the neighbors but nobody claimed to have lost a pet turtle and after some consideration and talking with some family members we concluded they must have washed out of the lake during the floods and somehow ended up in our nieghborhood and got into the backyard, still don't know how since we have a fence but since we were too far from any water and the turtle would most likely die if left alone we took him in, put him in a bin with some water, a rock to lay on and a bit of watermelon and lettuce, and then today when we had time we took him to the local pond and released them.
          
          And this was the day I learned that turtles can actually run surprisingly fast when they want to, but it was a really happy sight to see a turtle rushing off and diving into the water, and then raising their head over the water to give us one last look before saying goodbye.

Netogear1998

@Natemasta57 That's a good thing u did
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DF77777

@Natemasta57 that is amazing. Nice job saving the turtle
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Natemasta57

After so much time, being busy with college, with life, and my own mental issues of agonizing over feeling like I've forgotten something or being so overburdened by a long list of tasks that I can't bring myself to finish I have finally updated one of my stories, and I hope that I can keep this feeling going, working on the stories that I want to including a few drafts assuming I can work on them enough.
          
          https://www.wattpad.com/1467879385-kingdom-hearts-%27the-half-hearted-heartless%27-dlc
          
          Now, without further ado its late and I'd like to sleep now, and then forget about everything I wanted to do last night in the morning...that's been happening a lot these days.

ipoyipoy0

@Natemasta57 Good to see your starting to rekindle your love for writing and maybe someday the ruina chapter will be finished 
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Natemasta57

I don't know if this is normal, lately I've been having this dilemma where I'll feel like I'm forgetting something regardless if I actually am or not, I don't know if its because I've been stressed over my situation with college lately (I swear this semester was the worst out of all of them) or just stress or age in general but I'll wake up, have a list of things I wanted to do whether it be working on a story or playing a specific game but I'll feel like I'm forgetting something and then I get so caught up trying to remember what it was that I end up not doing anything, now its basically happening everyday and I don't know what to do anymore.
          
          "I wanted to work on my kingdom hearts story, I want to work on that Chaotic crossover fanfic, I wanted to play a specific game, there's an anime on hulu I've yet to watch, I have these assignments and here is a list of chores that need to be done before my mother returns....WHAT AM I FORGETTING!?"
          
          That basically sums up my day-to-day life for the past few 2 months.

SbeveMan9000

@Natemasta57 you are simply overwhelmed. You might have heard this a thousand times already, but you aren't missing out in stuff that much, one step at a time, one sentence a day. You'll remember.
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