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My parents are so stupid, why would you buy me a phone after trying to k|ll myself, after years of telling me that all it would do it expose me to porn and satanic shit. It's funny how after them realizing how bad they have fucked up they will try to do anything to make it "better", redeeming themselves too respect their own morals is all they care about, once all of this is over I hope they fucking realize how dumb this entire thing was. Everyone treats me like I'm going to break at any moment, while it's pretty obvious I'm already broken. No, a phone won't make me want to be christian, they have already failed raising me to be a basic fucking white christian boy. If they ever found out who I really am, they would probably have everyone start trying to pray the gay away, and I swear to God if they ever have a testimony that involves me trying to end game I will actually k|ll myself, again and again and keep trying until they get a fucking hint and leave me alone. I just want to live a normal life why can't I just have that, do I not deserve too have a normal life? I'm not you and I don't want to be you. If there is no escape I'll make one, even if I end up in the hospital again.
