Nellman24

as a silent cryer i cry making no noise
          	
          	so therefore if i do make a sound when crying its a pretty big deal
          	
          	the thing is most of my friends haven’t ever heard me cry cry before yknow they’ve only ever seen the light shedding of a few tears 
          	
          	so when i txted one of them saying i  had a headache from sobbing i meant i made some noises, like the hiccups the real heavy breathing the coughing you breathed in so hard, all of it, and coming from a silent cryer that means whatever happened was serious
          	
          	i wasn’t expecting to be asked what was wrong because earlier i had said i was reading wattpad and therefore they probably just assumed i had read something sad like i have many times before, but i thought they’d say something other than “sobbing ” yknow
          	
          	anyways i think i should make a rant book how bout it

Nellman24

as a silent cryer i cry making no noise
          
          so therefore if i do make a sound when crying its a pretty big deal
          
          the thing is most of my friends haven’t ever heard me cry cry before yknow they’ve only ever seen the light shedding of a few tears 
          
          so when i txted one of them saying i  had a headache from sobbing i meant i made some noises, like the hiccups the real heavy breathing the coughing you breathed in so hard, all of it, and coming from a silent cryer that means whatever happened was serious
          
          i wasn’t expecting to be asked what was wrong because earlier i had said i was reading wattpad and therefore they probably just assumed i had read something sad like i have many times before, but i thought they’d say something other than “sobbing ” yknow
          
          anyways i think i should make a rant book how bout it

Nellman24

ok this might just be my period talking but i feel like im unlovable
          
          i know i deserve love and that i have it in my family but i want romantic love
          
          i want the kind of love i write about or that i read about 
          
          you know how the character always decribes it as fluffy and warm, well why cant i have that in real life instead of just reading about it with fictional characters
          
          im not asking for any attention or anything i just want to know why im the unfortunate one to have no one to relate these feeling to