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the Internet is disgusting and do revolting. 
          
          people are so proud to say things that no one should ever say. 
          
          - ST

it's really cold today - Emmy 
          
          But got to play  Lord Loki's playlist!!!! 
          
          I forgot to pret before hand but I think they got it!! 
          I got see flying any and squirrel!! 

the past never truly vanished from the present, I see it amongst the present. 
          The mirror images. 
          Just split in two.. 
          
          
          Funny how things work out in truth. 
          The start looks like the same as the middle and part. 
          - oni 

" I have weird interest!!" 
          
          then when you say yours they look at you like your gum on the bottom of a public chair that is clearly the best flavor and not chewed all the way so you know they took it out just to leave it there, that is also warm when you accidentally touch it. 
          
          - Miku 

" you ask to do too much!" 
          I asked to play outside with the Cuson I don't get to see because we live hours away and could be moving to across the state !! 
          And you told me just last week how lazy I was for wanting to sit. 
          
          
          " Your sitting on your phone, get up you lazy bum" 
          Ok just relaxing. You told me to sit down and not bother you, I'm doing Both. 
          
          
          " give him time! he's just tired" 
          Yeah I guess he's just 'tired' around me, so tired that he can't listen to the ONE boundary we set because it triggers our PTSD and that Trumma holder. 
           
          Well nether of you can!  Control your husband. And stop getting pissed at me when I say something. And giving excuses, once okay but ten times. 
          
          Not saying what the thing/things are guess there are two my apologies. But I'm not stating them because I don't want to. 
          The second one really only hurts when others do it to us, though. 
          
          BUT we have told both him and his wife this MANY MANY TIMES. That it makes us uncomfortable. But also same lady who said our SA was less than. so I can figure it. 
          
          - Tink, BW, Miku 

Fronting is quite fun, I don't do it often but I enjoy being close to it. 
          I've been feeling more like a person as of late. Maybe because I'm with Miku and others but I still find it fun. 
          
          
          - choso 

oh Also I guess good news.
          We graduated from our physical therapy. We have to do excersice at home but now we are free. 
          
          We are really grateful we were able to do it and we are grateful everyone was so kind. 
          
          But yee good news I guess. 
          
          

I'ma tweak if I'm new main host 
          
          like LOKI is right there!! 
          And they are actually social!! 
          
          like why me TOT. 
          I'm lazy, messy and immature. 
          
          my job was to distract people ToT 
          
          like I want out of this room now. Been here three days. Got a small break from being main then back again TOT
          
          I yern for my room. Fir my bed. 
          Fir my Yumi alter 
          
          - Miku 

I find it fun to joke about our disability. 
          (physically one )
          
          because like what am I gonna do? it's permanent 
          
          Might as well laugh. 
          I find most jokes funny unless by people we don't know well. 
          
          But if I make the joke you can laugh. 
          yes it's not funny to be unable to do a lot of things. 
          
          but it gives me sit down comedy humor. 
          
          and us being proud of ourselves and expressing it shows alters and others we are not any less because of it. 
          And that we still own our body. 
          And we can be proud of it.
          
          
          - Miku, toga 

I have changed so much in just two years 
          
          it's so odd, 
          it took me excepting my source and role memories for my mind to become stable
          
          yes I have issues relating to my Trumma and the disorder I hold but I'm learning to not let them make me feel like a monster. 
          
          I have a beautiful girlfriend and two beautiful children. 
          That I adore 
          And a few siblings. 
          
          
          yes I feel emotions still and get low and high but I feel better then I did then. 
          
          Came so far since the pencil thing TOT (IRL friend reference. I'm still very sorry) 
          
          But yeah I'm 18 now and not 16 
          
          a lot has changed for the better. 
          I used to not get along with fin but now we are close and hya trusts me for advice. 
          
          Even my brother told me about his relationship issues which I feel so hounerd he trusted me enough. 
          
          - toga