ArtisticPotato

physically slaying mentally decaying

so far in my time at college i have seen 
          a) not one but two guys dressed around in teletubby costumes
          b) two men flirting with girls via a message on a rock
          and
          c) a man shave his head for charity 
          
          so it’s going great

All moved in

moving to college tomorrow and now i’m getting sad 

I move in two weeks for college but it doesn’t feel real at all. I’m literally packing up stuff and i’m still like ‘haha i’ll never leave’

i got a tornado warning for my county
          
          :D this is fine

You’re telling me I’ve been a fan of DSMp for a year and a half and I’m just now understanding Dream’s name
          
          DreamWasTaken
          as in the username ‘Dream’ was already taken
          
          that’s why his TikTok was DreamWasTakenWasTaken
          
          AM I JUST SLOW

The memorial book is up. Feel free to share it with others who are grieving. I would recommend that you try writing a letter to techno, even if he never sees it. It really helped put my mind at ease. If the memorial book comes across as insensitive to his death, please let me know and I will take it down immediately.

I’m making a quote book for techno and for myself to look at when I’m feeling sad. Not all of these quotes are by techno but some of them just make me feel better. Gonna update when I find one that I think is deserving. Feel free to put your own in the comments if you’d like it memorialized

TW (?): Long rant about techno
          
          I’m so freaking tired of having to pretend i’m fine. my family doesn’t know who techno was so i’ve had to bottle up all of these emotions. Add that on to the fact that I’ve been working the entire weekend in customer service so I’ve had to tell hundreds of people that ‘I’m doing good’ when I’m not. It didn’t feel real to me at first and now it’s finally kicking in. I was scrolling through Twitter and looking at fan art for techno and I cried for the first time since the news broke. I’d come close before but this was the first time I broke down. And I can’t tell anyone because they wouldn’t understand. Ive been able to watch his videos because it lets me pretend that this isn’t real, but as soon as I see the grieving comments it’s like a brick to the face. I know Techno wouldn’t want us to be sad since he’s up there 1v1ing God but it hurts. and it hurts that I have to go through my days acting like my heart isn’t breaking every time I see his name. Every single time, I’ll scroll through Twitter and think I’m getting over it but then something makes it feel like the wound was cut open again. I watched Skeppy’s video and it hurt so bad. I’ll see Techno’s video in my recommneeed and watch it and lose it at ‘If you’re watching this, I am dead.’ The picture of him with tubes. It all hurts so much. I thought he was recovering and on his way to as healthy as he could be so this whole thing felt like a brick to the face. I’m so tired of feeling so numb and so hurt. I know he’s probably making fun of me up in Heaven but this is hitting me hard. Im crying as Im writing this. Having to put on a happy face when I want to break down in the back is hurting me but I can’t explain to anyone except you guys. I want him back. I miss Technoblade.