NerdyReads9

Hello to those who are following me , I will be moving to another account called "NerdyReads_2", if you are interested in what i will write please follow me there

uhm...well a couple I months ago I think I spirled into depression . heh. sorry about those posts imma demon them as fast I can

I am writing a Story but it won't publish on this account since I am on phone so I am publishing my story on my other account  NerdyReads_2
          it's call Magic (I don't know what to call it

hello everyone ,  to my followers can you guys follow my other account please! thank you all!

they say I cant be depressed because I have everything I need , i can be depressed 'cause I am human , but no one cares about that , why would they , i need help but I cant get help , Even my parents think that , why ? , all humans feel things , so why cant I ?

They say I am Awful but why cant they look in the mirror

They want me to not feel Pain , fear , Sadness , anger 
          
          They want me to ducktape my mouth so I don't speak , to just obey 
          
          they say they care , They are lying

Today I looked In the mirror , and gave myself  slight smile but my reflection didn't smile back, i asked it ,
          "Why aren't you smiling back at me ?"
          it said 
          ''''''I cant smile anymore ,that's why''''
           I said 
          "what, Why!!?"
          '''''''''i am tired of putting on fake smiles when I am down , being Worthless being unappreciated by the one i love ,  i am tired of looking in the mirror and seeing that stupid  worthless piece of shit ,I cant smile knowing that No one cares""""
          "But I am smiling , you should smile too like you always do"
          
          """"That's a fake smile, my dear, you aren't happy , you are being fake , you can't hide your  real emotions forever """"""
          
          "I ....you are right I cant anymore too"
          

sooooo...., I have writers block that's why I still haven't updated our lifves  story i am sorry but maybe I will make a new story why don't you all request a type or fandom or  ships 
          just request something 
          
          I am just bored 

Soooo, I made a Story  and i just posted the introduction to it  and umm...it's my first story so I much need some advice soo if you can, can you guys give some advice?
          and as well can check my story (If you want) thank you!