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... Can I tell y'all something?
I've been ill for the past week. From the 24th to now, I've been stuck with a cough that's gone from REALLY bad to mild annoyance on a dime. I've essentially been isolated from everything because of it, which means Christmas and Boxing Day were a bust, aswell as not being able to spend what little time I could've with my sister (a rarity nowadays since she's off with a job in Nottingham). I've had nobody to truly confide in except for my also ill dad really, though not much since, obviously, he's also been ill. My mother has also fallen ill and is looking PREEEEETTY bad since, because of her preexisting physical conditions, this has just added another handicap ontop of her and it means she's been sleeping even more than usually. It's really been stressing me out, among other things.
Now, why am I telling any of you this? Well...
I've been reevaluating my real 'place' in terms of things here due to all of this 'free time', for a lack of a better term, along with some relationships, some more problematic than others, and, I just...
I don't want to be like this. I don't like this. I don't WANT this. I hate everything this account and what I've done here has stood for. The only thing here I don't hate is SMTTS, as its the only one I haven't had the time to grow spiteful towards. I just... I'm tired of this fucking dead account full of wasted fucking potential and broken promises. I don't want to be here, and, since it's the end of what I can charitably call the most absolutely Dog-Shit year of my Adolescent Life so far, I've just decided that... Fuck it.
Fuck it all. I can't do it.
I'm leaving. I'm leaving this account.
Permanently? Maybe, idfk, probably, not like I'll see any more success anywhere else on here.
Point is, I'm starting over because this place is depressing and I hate it here
Happy New Year, fuck your life, bing bong, kill me.