☆Freya ☆

Im just starting to get invested in the Mauraders era (-Ik I totally spelled that wrong) and I love it so much it’s so whole some and heartbreaking at the same time. 
          
          I mean I haven’t read any of the fanfics just a bunch of edits and snippets off of Pinterest. And my conclusion is that they’re all just gay now. But like the original ships still happen because they were friends and in the time the gays weren’t accepted- idk I’m still confused. But I’m all here for it because they are just so cute

This weekend has been amazing so far!!! We’ve had so much snow that buses have been cancelled so I’m basically getting a five day weekend!! And Jane Austen weekend was absolutely amazing! And The last episodes of cobra Kai came out eeeeeeee!!!! I’m so excited to watch them!!!

Day 3 of being happy!!!!

I had a shitty start to my morning, so I did my hair and mascara extra pretty today and that made me feel so good!!! And I actually had a great day at school :))) and I’m so happy that I have my new friends they’re amazing A and K you’re the best!!! After school I cried because of my mom. But I’m going rock climbing with some home friends that I never see and then we’re going to Mac Donald!!!!!!

Fuck. Guck this. Buck my stupid phone. Muck the stupid people I’m surrounded with. Ruck this I hate this. Duck my stupid phone for getting destroyed from the inside. Phuck my old  friends. You weren’t worth it. Fuck all of it

I used to love school so much. Now I truly feel like I use school as an escape from home but home as an escape from school. I hate that I hate it.

I’m unhappy and lonely and I don’t know how to make it better. I don’t know how to fix myself

I never used to hate life. But now I’m fucking terrified that no one will ever love me. I’ve lost most all of my friends and the one I do have I absolutely adore but I barley ever see them. And they have someone they’re closer to. I’m never going have my person. 
          
          
          And today I was having a really great day and I was really fucking excited for something for the first time in months. And then they cancelled. I was going to get my ears pierced again because I wanted to and I wanted to feel extra pretty and now I just feel shitty. Because I don’t have any friends and I cried that I’ll have to wait a few month to get my ears pierced.

I’m fucking tired. Of school. Of people. My “friends”. I’m fucking tired of it. And I’m lonely and everyone has someone and i can’t let myself be happy

I can’t wait to switch schools next year. That way it’s not my fault when my “bsf” and I grow out of friendship. It’s exhausting being her friend but we have such a history together that I’m not going to just drop her like an asshole - and if I did my bff would side with her and I’d lose the two of them- so now I just have to make it work and next year will be better