Hey everyone! First off, thank you for visiting my page and reading my work. It means more than you know. Secondly, this is me. I mean I stopped writing for a while but i'm back and i've gone through so much adversity in the past four years that could literally kill someone four separate times. Sorry to get depressing, but that's me, i'm depressing. I'm existentially realistic and blunt and I see the world through a reverse magnifying glass where everything that's so gigantically important to everyone else is hauntingly small to me. I kind of wish I could just exist like the rest of the population, going through the motions until death but I really can't even be normal in the most basic sense. I have severely debilitating medical problems that a plethora of doctors and procedures couldn't exactly narrow down to a straight diagnosis so i'm kind of just stuck between a hard place and a really hard place. Looking back at what I was in comparison to what I am now is extremely saddening and it really breaks me down but here I am, trying and living each day with a grain of salt. What a ramble right? I promise my writing isn't so drab and complex but it is real, it's always real. I don't sugarcoat anything because why should I right? Life is fucking hard and disappointing, but it's also an incredible opportunity and a beautiful experience in the connections we make to nature, art, music and people! So this is me, trying, living and not giving a shit about the sensitivity of a race that eats beheadings for breakfast and washes it down with a cold glass of impeachment. Love you all and you can reach out to me about anything, i'll never reveal a word and I have some crazy experience about this crazy life that just might give you some comfort (also i'm studying to become a psychologist). Thank you again and fuck the standards we're held to by a smothering society and a finite race to a purpose in this dreary but beautiful existence. (: 
(also i make lofi if you wanna check it)