Nico

Hi random human

Wasn’t that last post ironic. I’m so close to fucking ending it. I’m so tired of everything, this isn’t what I wanted from school or my relationship.

I can’t remember if my last post was announced to followers or not but I’m mote mentally stable than then. I’ve had many talks with my partner and honestly just wanted to say hi but I saw that so yee

I want to kill myself, I fucked up and I know it and I just want to go. I was in a bitchy mood and I was being an asshole to my partner and they rightfully got pissed with me. I just want to fix it but I don’t know what to do, I don’t want to say anything to my friends bc I don’t want to bother them but I don’t know what to fucking do. I’m such an asshole and I know that they cared I just didn’t feel like anyone did at the time and I was just being a bitch. I don’t want them to leave me but they deserve better and I know it’s the first time this has happened but I was an asshole. I don’t know what to do and I just want it to end, I’m tired and I’m probably being even more selfish by thinking this. I was crying from 5 til I goy to sleep and I think I’m having a mental breakdown. It was hard to breathe and I was ripping my hair out and that’s probably selfish as well. I have no right to feel like this when I’m the asshole here. They’d be better off without me being such a cry baby and a bitch. I’m so sorry. Im so sorry 

Okay I take back my last announcement, my crush fucking cutest person I've ever met, genuinely love them so much, I may be a simp but you honestly can't blame me

How the fuck can I flirt with my crush which I never do and still get swerved just tell me you don't  like me, damn. I'm so over this bs arch in my life where someone does something's remotely nice or compliments me and I spend weeks crying over them. Let's get to the one where I'm stable or I'm not interested. I liked the me that didn't care about relationships. Like was I that emotionally and physically starved that I can't go without ppl. Fking over this shit

My dad is the biggest peice of shit ever and my mum is no better, he threatened to kick out my brother. Why? This all fucking started b  we didn't want to dance. God these people really do try their best to ruin my life

Genuinely hate my family

Just finished the trollhunters movie and I must say. Douxie be cute, imma just say it. He cute

Finished watching fear street and omg I love it, so ducking much. Like, ajaksjddg