someone

I never thought i would have to experience war in my entire life but as i see i dont have a choice. I am scared for my family, i am scared for my friends, i am scared that i wont have a future, i am scared that i will have to lose people that i love because at the end of the day, the government isn't the one that will fight for their country but we. I may be overdramatic and overthinking this topic so much but i am so scared... I just cant imagine how many innocent people will lose their lives and how many people will have to live with that for the rest of their life. If there really was democracy, then people would be given a chance to speak up and vote because i haven't seen anyone for the government think or speak about what people REALLY want and what will be the best for them. Atp im just yapping but the only thing i want to say is no one will win in this war. Everyone will lose and things wont get better for a very long time. 

It's been a while since i last wrote something here. Usually when i write something it's because i am not handling things well. I don't even care if someone reads all this bullshit that i'm saying, but it helps me to not go insane after all the things are going on in the world. For the first time in my life i started to enjoy life and found people that i really love. My relationship with my family is good, i dont have enemies, i am very thankful for all the things that i have in life and  i started to plan my future. This last few days I started to feel so depressed and hopeless about the world and the society that we live in. Every time i hear or see posts on social media about WW3 it makes my stomach sick and i wanna cry. I hate that because older generations can't handle things well in their country they think starting a war is the solution for everything. Throughout my whole life I've been told that violence never solves problems and only with communication you can find the solution. I think the government forgot this and thinks it's better to start a war. 

hi there friend. i miss you. i hope your okay

It hurts to miss someone you cant have back. I would do anything to just have an actual conversation with them that maybe would make things up. I know i fucked it up but after all this years i still miss them and i cant get them out of my head. I am going insane. I need help. They probably stopped thinking about me and now i feel like a fool that cant move on and cant keep things in the past. I hate my mind. I hate myself. I just want them back thats all i ask...

i would so love if you read this! 
          
          https://www.wattpad.com/story/140608780?utm_source=ios&utm_medium=link&utm_content=story_info&wp_page=story_details&wp_uname=ladytyler

hey there you! open to any fic ideas? im not so sure if you’ve read any of my older ones but i think you’d enjoy them! let me know!

I'm alive

i miss you! i hope and pray you’re doing okay!

I found am old interview where Tyler was asked something like how you dealt your dark times and he answered this question so wisely. He said that our generation deals with a lot of depression and a lot of s*ic*de and that those two topics are centered around  the idea of purpose. Whats the purpose or whats the point of anything, and that sometimes it can cause us to lose our faith in ourselves. So he thought how he can create a purpose for himself that will help him carry on. So what he found out was that through art you can create a beginning of purpose ,not the whole purpose because its a big thing, but a begging of it. So when he was at his "dark hours", as he likes to call it,  he thought if you have something that you've created and you are the only person that knows and can explain the meaning behind it, this might be the thing that will help you to get through those moments. For example he gave the song kitchen sink. No one really knows the meaning behind this song but him. And if he told us what this song means to him, then it kinda loses the meaning of purpose. Sorry for yapping but i really wanted to share this

I admire people that can create something valuable weither its writing, singing, dancing or anything else.