Hey, having a bit of a panic and washed some thoughts, feel free to ignore tho.
So I was reading a fic, it was one of those choose who dies fic, and I was wondering if I was ever in that scenario, who I would pick if it was between my parents and my siblings. And I realised that I would choose my siblings to live and my parents to die every single time. Obviously I wouldn't want my parents to die, and I would try to find a way out of it, and if sacrifice myself first if I could. I'd mourn and miss my parents after and I would feel horrible. But I wouldn't regret my choice. I wouldn't have had to think about it, I wouldn't feel conflicted (about the choice, obviously I'd worry there was a way out I wasn't seeing.
Obviously all this is speculation, there's no way of knowing what I'd actually do. But in every imagined version of that scenario, that's what happens. Am I, like, a bad person for that? Shouldn't I love my family equally?
(Thx wattpad for letting me rant)