New Year, New Me. I've been thinking about a lot of things... realizing things about life and growing as a person. Being honest, I've been at an all time low since summer last year. Maybe it's the stress of school... the loss of an idol... finding friends that I can pretty much talk to about anything. Now that I think about it as I'm writing this notice, I think that they're probably the reason why I've stopped writing in my diary and "Controller" for a whole half year+. They've filled up my time... the void of loneliness I've felt, and I am thankful for them. But that void can only be avoided for so much, as words can only go so far. Not saying that words can not comfort, because they have in ways that may have saved my conscience and sanity. In my "real" life, I've found my body more lonely than my mind. My so called "friends" haven't felt like friends, despite being completely of the good people. Did I do something wrong? Why don't they tell anything..? Even if it isn't about me... I'm still there... to be there... but nobody seems to care. I know this isn't the case, but I can't help but think that way, as regretful as that sounds as I type on this keyboard.
Anyways, Happy New Years everyone :)
"Controller" has been gaining quite some attention since I last updated. I'm glad... Well... they say "new year, new me" so well. I might as well clean up my life. I forgot how much I loved to write... so I am in the midst of updating "Controller." I'm not sure when the next chapter will be up, but I will try to move the story. I'm more motivated than ever. I have many ideas... I won't be scared anymore.
1/3/17 10:48 p.m.
~xx Mars
