~♡𓆩Abel𓆪♡~

I love your profile pic. I wish I could watch season 2 of Hazbin Hotel... 

Y'all I know I haven't been on lately, but at least I published my one-shot. 
          
          I've been hella busy with a lot of shit, mental issues everything like that, so I've been tryna find outlets for myself going back and forth between multiple outlets. 
          
          Anyway I hope you like my new one-shot :) 

I finally published the first one-shot to my one-shots collection (yes I'm probably gonna change the cover but enjoy this if you like it) 
          https://www.wattpad.com/story/401103320

I have 63 book ideas.. In my drafts.... WTF HOW?!? This shows you how much I procrastinate. 

I did not know I had 171 followers considering I've been gone for months and don't post often, maybe it's cause I post multi-fandom stuff? Idk but thank you all, I appreciate it, I've just been extremely busy and I actually mean that, I've had 4 deaths in the family (one each month unfortunately) and I've been trying to get over those along with health problems both mental and physical along with trying to keep other people in my life stable as well, so it's been hella Rocky for the past 4 months lately and I've almost given up a few times but, I've been working through it, hopefully I'll be getting better some stuff seems promising. Also I feel like if I keep trying to distract myself maybe I won't feel as bad? But also I don't have enough motivation with all the shit that's been happening to write stories, at least not frequent ones, maybe back and forth between some stuff but not staying on the same thing for too long, I mean my literal only finished book I have on here is a discontinued book... 2 discontinued books actually, and the others are pretty chaotic as well... I don't know maybe I'll get the motivation to write other books while I wait for my interest to come back to continue my books I've already started, we'll see. 
          
          But until then, get used to my infrequent writing journey. 

Some of y'all amaze me with how often you post new chapters to any of your books or stories or fanfics, y'all over here posting almost everyday and I'm here stuck with crippling depression that gives me major creative block, the most I've been able to do is put up what I want to write and then wait till I get motivation to write it later. 
          
          Which reminds me I'm supposed to be re-writing my book x-virus which I'm changing it to Virus-X and I wanna re-write it to be better more emotional and gory but also write it in a way that's less boring. Which is a little bit of a struggle but I have my friends cheering me on and giving me tips. 
          
          While I also still wanna write fanfics, I think I should straight up just make one-shots from now on considering how much I struggle to write actual fanfic books. 
          
          I've also been exhausted lately, mentally and physically, and I try to push through to actually feel like I'm being productive but then it gets shot down by me getting overwhelmed by the fact I have to do so much and I struggle to even get out of bed. 
          
          No this is not a pity post for myself this is just more explaining why I keep promising I'll write and then I end up changing my mind at the last minute, it's not that I don't want to write, it's that I get so mentally and physically blocked that I can't do it, and it makes me feel bad that I cant give you guys something to enjoy because of this. Because I love seeing you guys happy and enjoying my books I just feel extremely bad that I can't keep up with my promises like I hoped. 
          
          But thank you guys really.. You all supporting me means a lot, so much so that you guys don't even realize how much your support means to me.. And how much it keeps me going with trying to write stuff I enjoy and not just hope for the best. 

Y'all so I'm trying out for "the face of Halloween" and it's also a fundraiser, so I was wondering if y'all would vote for me, it's 1 free vote every 24 hours. I'm currently in 3rd place in my group.
          
          https://faceofhalloween.org/2025/spencer-mccollum 
          
          Here's the link if you do wanna vote for me, if you don't that's fine you can vote for someone else, that's your choice. 
          
          Also face reveal? I guess? Since you have to see my face in it. 

How y'all doing uhhhh... I've been tired and sleeping lately like sleeping in extremely late.. Which is weird for me idk what's going on. 
          
          But anyway I just wanted to check in on my followers and mutuals see how everyone's doing

I have finished the first chapter of baby Saja x male reader!!!!! I hope you all enjoy it. I loved writing this
          https://www.wattpad.com/story/398008800

I just created an AO3 account, and I'll be putting some of my already posted books on there to see how it goes :3 so I'll be having more than one social platform to post my fanfics, so I'll have to put all my books in Google Docs so that I don't lose them all, which will be fun and I'll enjoy that, and hopefully it'll give me more motivation to post as well.