Just realized that I let everyone down. I WAS clean for about 2 months but I just recently 'hurt' myself. I'm sorry. But, 5SOS, Green Day, One Direction, All Time Low, Ghost Town, Nirvana, My Chemical Romance, Black Veil Brides, Pierce The Veil, and Sleeping With Sirens helped me stay clean for those 2 months, let's see if they can do it again.
~I don't know where I'd be if I didn't listen to those bands, so thank you for creating them.
~I've always felt like I need to be strong for other people, but I just now realized that I've never been strong for myself. I've always been the shoulder to cry on, the person with advice, the person that listens, but no ones ever been that for me. I think that needs to end. If I don't even know how to make myself happy, give myself advice, cry on my shoulder, what makes you think that I can do that for you. I want a give-and-get relationship with everyone I know, not a give-and-give.
~I know that this post is not something people really want to see in the morning, but I just needed to rant. I actually feel about 10% better right now. Imma go back to listening to my life-savers, and get my crap together. ✌✌✌✌
