So today wasn't exactly the best day. Me, my little sister, and my grandma went to go see my mom. She'd called earlier saying she needed $425. As much as I love my mom she can really cause me to stress out a lot. If you don't know I'm going to be a senior this coming fall when school starts again. I plan on graduating and going to college. I already have a community college not too far away from where I live with lots of places to work. The only problem is that we don't have enough money for me to go to college. And for the first time in my entire life I wanted to scream at my mom for having needed so much of our money that could have been saved for other things. But I didn't because I believe that I'm better than that. Not to mention we were at Walmart where a bunch of people would have seen. All I've ever really wanted was to be able to go to college and not have to really worry about how I'm going to pay everything back. I want to be able to have a good education and a good job that I'd enjoy while making enough money to get by on. Honestly, I know things could be a lot worse than they are but that doesn't really stop me from feeling like this. My mom hasn't exactly been the best role model and for years I've wanted to be so much better than she is. I know she's trying the best that she can. It's just that sometimes I really want to scream and instead I don't. I remain silent and smile when inside I'm dying.
