No I am not coming back but you all deserve an explanation. First,I am sorry for just leaving with no explanation but I hope you all can forgive me. Second, no I am not coming back but this letter will explain why.
To my voices,
I was suffering from severe anxiety. Everyday was a struggle,I was on the brink of self harm but willed myself not to. I had just told my family what was happening and immediately got help. Even though all of you were family to me,I was ashamed. I was ashamed that I wasn't strong enough to deal with it. I felt weak. Getting help from a counselor was like waving a white flag. I was useless. I couldn't control my own emotions. But after a year and a half of self discovery, days where I wanted to sit on the floor and stay there and cry, I managed to get myself together. No, I didn't 'cure' it but I found ways of coping. I found my self confidence as best as I could and I still am finding my self worth. As much as I want to come back and as much as I know you would all support me and love me,I'm scared. I haven't reached the point in my life where I trust myself not to push anyone away. You are all my voices and always will be. Most of you were like family to me. Don't forget me. I love you all
Signed,
The loud one
