Niknak_pattiewak

Wipe the trouble away and let the beauty in.

I really don’t know how to feel right now. You’ve been on my mind this entire month. It’s crazy because your birthday is approaching within a week and this is the first birthday that you’re not here on earth. We’re preparing for your balloon release in honor and celebration on you for your 48th birthday. This shit still seems so surreal to me. But I know that it’s real, I don’t get to see you anymore or hear your voice… the shit still fucked up. The thing about life is you can’t change what’s already been done. Like  you can’t be brought back from the grave. And the thing about God is that he makes no mistakes. He needed you in heaven with him for His own reasons. We try not to ask why but always wonder why our love ones have to be taken away from us at the time that God calls them home. You’ll be having a party in heaven this year with all of our family members. Love Mal! You are truly loved and missed my guy. Love your Nicole♥️

Had a moment yesterday, it was pretty unexpected honestly. So I’m in CVS pharmacy trying to get some medicine to get over this cold that snuck up on me. Everything was going good. It wasn’t until I was leaving and one of the workers was addressing something to one of the workers who’s name is Mallory. Hearing that I froze in my tracks and it made me feeling some type of way because that is my cousin name who I loss back in January who was very significant in my life and still having a hard time with. I literally started crying in the store and my friend was looking at me like I was crazy but I had no words it was just a crazy moment for me.