Pessimistic and lost hope. Wow, I am glad that I am one of those because I can speak with my online friend who maybe or not, just confessed their dark thought to harm other people, and yet, I managed to pull them into the Limbus Company fanbase by saying to them "You're Sancho".
Is it will help them to move forward and not fall? I hope it will. I truly hope it will. Sancho is just fictional character, but oh man, I have nothing but respect for her. About important of dream, even if its unreachable.
And while I called them online friend... I have been quite adamant to not reveal our rl, not name, gender, even age, because I always said to them <You can think of me as a voice inside your head, cuz my rl may betray your expectation of me>
Is it sad? Yes, I think it is sad that I prefer to be just a voice. From others POV, perhaps. But I prefer it this way. Getting betrayed, even if its unintentional, always hurt.