Nina Romanoff

I am in drama class well was I been out of it for 5 minutes cause I am having an anxiety attack I am suppose do my lines and everything and people aka my class/audience are suppose to point out things give feedback and all and I don’t remember most my lines and we can’t use the paper script and everything is going through my mind

Hiii guys hope your all doing good I am just freaking out you may ask why we’ll my gf has answered me she told me when she would be able to text me and it’s way past that no I ain’t worried if she is seeing someone else like I AM WORRIED IF SHE IS OK OR NOT it’s really unusual for her to do this and I am trying to to cry and since I am an overthinker and my anxiety is a bitch I am trying my best not to think of horrible or worst case scenarios I just hope she is ok I am so worried right now that I am hoping so many times she is ok I love her so much I can’t loose her or have her get hurt

Hi

So I am having like this winter dance costume contest during December and we’ll funny thing I have no winter costume or dresses and I found this cute winter dress I want but I don’t have a job yet so I can’t get it sadly just gonna have to wait tell next year but like it was so cute! I fucking put it on my list for next year stuff if I have a job next year but it cost so much and I don’t like gifts well I do but like I feel really guilty if someone gets me a gift even presents for Christmas and then so I told my mom all I wanted was one small gift she said that was fine it doesn’t even cost a lot either which is good but like the dress I want is so cute and I think it will look good at me
          

So I am tired learning about sexual education I am bored and pissed off for some reason I don’t know why I can’t do littlespace cause I am at school so I am pushing it away the best I can

So I told the library lady that a my ex friend stole a Chromebook and reseted the whole thing took off the label and so she gonna go to the principal and I don’t know if he is gonna believe a word I said or anything he might get mad at me and think I am lying I hope he won’t cause the principal hates my guts

My teacher is being an asshole she made me cry she said I couldn’t read cause I had work to do though I finished it and she was allowing everyone on there phone though they had work to finish but she called the principal on me for being on my phone though I finished my work she was also saying mean things I am crying right now wanting to be little but I can’t cause I am in class

I scares my mama yelleds ats me for nots eatings more I didnt evens feels like eatings ands she forceds mes to eats me nos like mes scareds of hers ands me hads bads nightmares thats I wokes up cryings and I almost passeds outs due to nots calmings down from panic attacks me cants sleep nows to scareds

Aaaaa I hate my face is so fucking ugly especially since I have many pimples I wish I looked like someone with those smooth face no pimples 

So I won’t get sleep I have a little monster in my bed tonight aka my little sister I told her I am gonna leave in about 2-3 years she started crying and I love her so much and I didn’t want to see her sad she said she wants to move and live with me I might have to save extra money now for that and might have to wait a few more years to see my mother figure especially when my sister loves me so much and doesn’t want me to leave or atleast she wants to come and meet my mother figure too so have to save up more money especially too buy me and my sister both plane tickets and i have to go through court for me and my sister to become American citizen all by ourselves with no help and so when my sister was crying I started cheering her up and making her laugh so much