I think change is very scary. I used to think I was quite independent and adaptable but I'm not. I don't like not being good at something so I just end up not doing it at all so I'm not able to improve myself. my fear of failure is dragging me down and swallowing me deep into a pit of failure. the thought of always having someone being better than me is excruciating, why cant i be the best something ? do i always have to have someone one up me ?
anyway im going to pre-u end of this month woooooo
been here from pre-teen to almost adult is crazy