Nixsy

You shit-talked me under the table, talking rings and talking cradles
          I wish I could un-recall how we almost had it all
          Dancing phantoms on the terrace, are they second-hand embarrassed
          That I can't get out of bed 'cause something counterfeit's dead?
          It was legendary
          It was momentary
          It was unnecessary, should've let it stay buried
          
          Oh, what a valiant roar
          What a bland goodbye
          The coward claimed he was a lion
          I'm combing through the braids of lies
          "I'll never leave"
          "Never mind"
          Our field of dreams, engulfed in fire
          Your arson's match, your somber eyes
          And I'll still see it until I die
          You're the loss of my life
          

To be with someone who wakes you up every day. It's beautiful. 

Turn around, look at what you see
          In her face, the mirror of your dreams
          Make-believe I'm everywhere
          Given in the light
          Written on the pages is
          The answer to our never-ending story
          
          Ahhhh~~~~
          
          DEM I AM SO IN LURVE WITH STRANGER THINGS SERIES-- I'D PROLLY GO ON TALKING ABOUT IT FOR YEARS

My almost forever
          

I can't explain the way that I left for the moon
          Your tears like rain
          Emotions that ran from the truth
          And every day that I wish that I could have been new
          I found myself in everything when I met you

I don't know why like the back of my mind, I always think I could finally be free and do the things I wanted to do when I'm married. I just always imagine a simple and quiet life. Never once I asked for extravagant things. Now the hope's fading. You're counting days to live, I count my days to die, silently. Everyone's moving forward, but I'm stuck at some point in the past all alone, not really moving with the time. That's how the story goes and end. 

Late night wonders

Sacrificing your mental health for people who are never gonna appreciate you. Wishing for death everytime it rains. Hoping to close your eyes for eternity everytime you open them. 

I'd rather unlearn and forget everything than to have all these feelings and memories. 

Reading back everything I wrote cuz' I miss that time