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Got back into my fanfiction phase and I sometimes read the shit I've already read two years ago. I either comment the most cringiest shit ever imaginable or say some joke I would say rn. I feel like I went through cryo sleep cuz how did I not change

After a year and a half of not listening to my teachers, I still managed to get an average of 90 in the last quarter. I couldn't have given less shits about my classes and still managed to get an average of 90. It's the lowest grade I've ever gotten in my life but at least I didn't get one lower than 90. That's what I call a blessing, I didn't do that, God did.
          
          My school life didn't roll down into the abyss like I thought it did, it just stopped halfway down the hill. I'm bout to pray everyday cuz of this 

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I feel empty. I haven't eaten alot in the past few weeks. I haven't been eating. No one noticed before quarantine and no one noticed until now. I'm not hungry, I never feel that anymore. The pain I feel in the pit of my stomach feels like the pain when you feel you're anxious.
          
          My sleep schedule gets worse everyday. I feel like this is normal for people these days but my eyes start to get blurry for a millisecond. I notice it after it happened and I don't know what "it" is. When I write, my eyes phase out for one second and gets better the next.

I feel like I won't make it. I won't make it to adulthood, I won't make it to my dreams and I won't make it in anything. Everything I do gets fucked up because of me. Every emotion I show is annoying and "too much". I don't feel good about anything anymore. If there is an afterlife, I wish I could just sleep through the eternity I would be there.

I'm not really interested in anything anymore... I don't like writing, I don't like reading, I don't like singing and I don't like socializing. I'm not even good at anything anymore. 
          
          I wanna end it but I think I'm gonna fuck it up like I always do. I honestly hope no one irl would see these. I would want to die more if this shit gets to my family.

Thanks for the 3.33k reads on the Dark humor book bros

Sometimes I feel like time goes too fast and I want it to stop. I always thought that when I was a kid, my life was better and happier, and I was right. While getting older I realize that everyone around me wasn't happy all the time but that's just what they showed me. I realized that the just didn't show any negative emotions to me as a kid but now, I think they think I'm ready to deal with their problems. I'm not.
          
          I'm still the sad crybaby I was before. Everyone was as sad and angry before and now they're sadder and angrier. It isn't my fault but I feel like I contribute to the problem.

Hey guys, I'm was feeling kind of down for the past few weeks and I've been trying to gaslight myself to think that I'm fine and remove all my bad habits. I've been really confused about my opinions, my habits, my hobbies and basically who makes myself me. Remembering who I was before covid and remembering what I've become over the past two years really rocked my ship a little and made me sad that I wasn't able to uphold expectations I and other people have made for me. I don't talk about this to anyone since I try to avoid confrontation about it in real life since I'm afraid that I won't have the right words and make a fool of myself. You haven't seen me in a long time and I feel bad about that and wanted to make it clear that I'm not dead yet. Since my mental health has been declining recently, you'll most likely not see me for a long time. I'll need time to wrap my head around what's gonna happen to me and my future. Hopefully you'll understand. Thanks for reading this and have a good day.

How would liking, sharing and commenting on a post going to help someone that's dying