Bella

Friends can be so unreliable eh?
          I would laugh if i wasnt so unamused. Maybe later when ive processed and dismissed enough for it to become the butt of a joke
          The ppl close to me know how much i struggle at home and how i dont have a safe place there yet still
          I had to deal with so much today on top of being taken out by my aunt only to feel like throwing up because hey! What better way to end a day than your developing eating disorder to flare up! Yay.
          But no. Friend is mad cuz you didn’t immediately do their bidding. Thank you friend. Thanks alot

It was my birthday yesterday. Time flies by fast huh. I forgot too

My brothers turned five oh my god 
          Weren’t they just born? Time is flying and leaving me behind I swear..

I want to do a MAJOR editing/ rewriting of everything I've written because a lost of this stuff was written when I was 12/13 and now it's just embarrassing 
          
          plus I have bad anger issues and tend to make drastic decisions in major fits of rage so I dont want to get annoyed and delete something that I couldve worked over when I was more patient lol

don't mind..
          but what does Genderfluid mean?

Man i've pretty much been living on ao3
          anywayssss i feel like giving away some stories i've started. like Locked Away. I know lots of people want it continued and think its a good idea, and tbh i do too, but i feel like its gonna be a hell of a long time before i'm free enough to even touch some of my stories here. i am way too busy.
          So if anyone wants to take it off my hands, please privately contact me. Also just because my stories are still my babies I'd probably ask to read it over or edit some things, but thats just small stuff.
          If you do anything without my permission, i will take that as my cue to hack into your system, find out your address, work and or school and flay you alive.
          perhaps a punishment out of order for the crime but who said life is fair?

Breathing fresh air after 16 days in the slammer! Ahhh the real world sure is bright!
          Lol yea, just got out the hospital, I have so many motivations to catch up too ughhhh

 #in the hospital
          
          yup this is where impulse decisions get ya
          
          anyways apparently they think I tried to off myself which isnt true... but I'm prolly going to a psych ward
          
          dont worry! I'm be fine
          see ya!♡

I'm so sorry that I couldnt post this yesterday, my phone had been taken.
          hi jonghyun. I really hope you're doing well up there. I may not be extremely religious but if theres a heaven you are most definently up there. 
          you were a beautiful soul and a talent idol and amazing person. you deserved better. this world wasnt made for how much love you had in your heart. 
          I'm glad you finally got a break from your demons. it's been three years but it still feels like I just find out. you were so beautiful. you will never be forgotten. 
          you made history. you are forever a legend and your memories with shinee, shawols and the world will last until this earth decays.
          I didnt know you until it was too late but your departure still broke and breaks my heart. 
          until next year, sweet angel 

idk if it's just me but I am so sick and damn tired of yoongi being introduced as this intimidating meanie in every goddamn ff known to mankind (exaggerating but still)
          it's always that hes some type of way in the beginning either its him- centric because of his *trauma* or another member- centric and hes the asshole who later warms up
          
          GUUS!! Yoongi is a sweetheart! period!
          and upon meeting he is POLITE!
          
          Taehyung is more likely to be a lil rude than yoongi tbfh (and I'm here for that)
          
          yoongi is CUTE and SMOL and yall need to see that.
          that's some new army type bullshit, yall older armys be hella disappointing with this
          
          (now I ain't coming for ff writers, yall have all creative control over your characters but it's a TIRED TIRED TIRED narrative that is apparently carrying over to real life and I'm sick of it)
          
          so now in my new fanfics, yoongi is how he truly is at least how he should be in my eyes.
          kind, protective and a MENTOR to his little brothers because that he is
          
          thank you.