NoLongerUsed101

hi. so i have been R E A L L Y unactive, this isnt because I stopped reading, this is because my dumbass got locked out, therefore, please go follow my Alt that I will be posting and more active on if you need :) @ImHighImBiAlt

Okay, so im back. After a LONG break (of me figuring out stuff, relationships lol) and other shit i am back :)
          
          
          I am not going to lie, my depression and anxiety have gotten worse :)
          So i just needed time to try and sort my shit out :) Now i am back and hopefully i can reach out to some of the people who i used to talk to on here :)

I have many questions that i hoped someone would be able to answer:
          
          1. Why do I compare myself to others so often?
          2. When I do this, why do I feel so fucking ugly?
          3. Am I the only one, who If they don't have a blade on them, scratches themselves till they bleed?
          4. Why do i feel so empty
          
          Deep thoughts at 9 at night with me :)

idk if you can see it, but I changed my name, I thought it was genius. probably isn't but you know fuck that :)

Okay! I am going to talk more about my life. I don't open up often but sometimes I feel like all you supportive people deserve some background.
          I am a 14-year-old. I have social anxiety and "mild" depression. I don't really know when or how my depression started but I can remember when I realised I was going through something. I had just gotten out of a really abusive breakup (I won't go into it but she was insecure and made me feel like shit to boost her mood and make her feel better about herself). When we broke up, I knew I should have been happy but I just fell apart, I felt like I was worthless, almost like I shouldn't be alive like a waste of space and time. That wasn't worth a second of everyone's time. So I went online and searched up "How to relieve sadness". It came up with cutting so I tried and did the same routine for over 4 weeks.  I didn't get addicted fully, but I would whenever I was breaking and just wanting to give up I would cut until my whole body was covered in bloody cuts. I didn't know what to do, so I reached out to people, some of my friends were really understanding and I made sure to check up on me. *time skip of about 4 months* I now go to therapy and talk to people about my feelings and urges often. I am also able to help others now so if anyone wants to talk about something, message me :) I know most people won't care but some people pour their hearts and souls out and well, I needed a rant.
          
          Have a great day everyone, Stay safe and make sure to look after yourself.

Does anyone have any good fanfics that they are reading and loving at the moment? i need some ;w;

This is a really good story. I'd make me and the author happy if you checked it out! https://www.wattpad.com/story/242724330-lock-down-study-tododeku-and-kiribaku

Okay this is fucking insane, i have 25 followers, without a book or anything. Holy shit, thank you guys so much! 
          QUESTION!!! Where did you guys find me? like which book and Fandom, I am in a lot so I would love to know! <333 Have a great day, stay safe and wear a mask and wash those hands! <333

Can I just ask, why do people follow me? Like I don't even post on this Convo tab. Welp, I guess thank you to all the people following me :) I am going to try and comment more on this platform. I have followed all the people who have followed me (its only fair)
          
          ANYWAYS!!! Have a great day everyone! <3333 Sending love and support your way! <3

Hey there! I just wanted to say thank you for your interest in my Tadashi x reader <3 have a good one!