ARIRARIRANG

I have been really really ungrateful lately. It's not because I don't see how blessed I am, but because I actually see how hopeless I am. Everything I seem to own, my existence, my life, my belongings, my body, my character, my grades, my image, the fact that I'm breathing and the fact that I have something to eat, every single thing is provided by my parents. Everything belongs to them. I haven't earned a single penny all my life. I don't have anyone but then, and I don't even know how to treat them without  fucking up. I hate that I don't even have the right to be mad at something because NOTHING IS MINE in this world. No one, nothing, belongs to me here. It will only be foolish of me if I thought I could have a say in things if I at least earned my own living. Because even then, the fact that I am able to do so itself would be because of God's blessings. Despite the fact that anything could go wrong, if my life goes well, it's all thanks to God, really. I will forever be indebted to someone or the other and it's about time that I come to terms with that. 
          
          If my parents' words hurt me, I'm liable to let it go because my anger won't even compare to the things they did for me.

If only Wattpad stopped glitching TT

OH BTW IF Y'ALL ARE MONITORING MY MB, Please fix whatever this apparent "Server Error" is, it's annoying af. I can't load anything and it's been a week already. This has happened before and I fixed it by changing the DNS to a public one but now that doesn't work either. It'll be highly appreciated if you could fix it asap. Thank you.
          
          @Wattpad

Wattpad sent me a support message last night, saying that a concerned community member flagged my post and asked Wattpad for help. Whoever did it, thank you. It's refreshing to see someone actually care. They say they removed my story but I can still see it. Although I'm sure I didn't post anything harmful on any of my stories without a prior warning.
          
          Anyways, I'm fine guys, really. That was just me ranting to no one and if any of the mentioned topics triggered any of you guys, I'm really really sorry. I wasn't in a mental state to post a trigger warning before ranting. Whatever I said about my family, it's just what I felt when they said those harsh words to my face. Although I know what they're going through, none of it is an excuse to hurt someone verbally. I couldn't show my rage to them because it'll only make things worse so I just shared it here. 
          
          Once again, thank you so much for caring. I love you guys. 

It's funny that the moment I stop being busy i start hating myself 

I need to be more secretive about my emotions fr... Being too open actually makes me look silly :((((
          
          Ugh I wish I didn't talk so much OH GOD I HATE IT

OKAY I WAS OFFLINE FOR A FEW DAYS AND WATTPAD HAS A SOCIAL FEED RN?? WHOA LIKE HOW COOL IS THAT??
          
          
          APPARENTLY WE CAN SEE WHAT OUR FOLLOWERS ADD TO THEIR READING LISTS NOW 
          
          
          WOW

Hi,
          I'm really sorry to drop my message here. How are you doing?
          
          Would you like to give my stories a little read?
          
          I have three stories that you can try reading. Doesn't matter if you dislike them; you can put comments. I like to see feedback and interact.
          
          I'm just going to drop the links here: 
          1) Professionally His = https://www.wattpad.com/story/245407624-professionally-his
          2) The Shameless Heiress And Her Shy Beast = https://www.wattpad.com/story/396797268-the-shameless-heiress-and-her-shy-beast
          3) The Gold Mine Keeper: The Ice King's Undoing = https://www.wattpad.com/story/401324786-the-gold-mine-keeper-the-ice-king%27s-undoing
          
          Thanks for your time!

HII GUYS LONG TIME NO CHAT
          
          I'M SORRY I HAVEN'T BEEN ACTIVE LATELY... BEEN BUSY STREAMING ARIRANG LOL AND OFC THEY WERE (AND STILL ARE) GIVING A FUCKING FEAST WITH ALL THE CONTENT THAT I LITERALLY NEEDED TO TAKE A BREAK TO KEEP UP!!
          
          THEY'RE MAKING UP FOR THE FOUR YEARS OF BTS DEPRIVATION AND SERVING THE PEOPLE WHO STAYED DESPITE ALL
          
          I LOVE THEM PLEASE TT

Y'ALL SEARCH BTS ON GOOGLE!! AND PLAY A COOL WIYLS GAME!!!
          
          I MISS MY APOBANGPO THEME NGL... BUT THIS IS A CRAZY CHANGE!!
          
          It was my go-to when I missed bangtan, I just googled them and popped the balloons to hear the "I purple you"s.
          
          WELL NOW I DON'T NEED TO MISS THEM BC THEY'RE BACKKK
          
          Gtg install my socials back. I'm SO behind on updates