* TRIGGER WARNING IF NOT OK WITH OR SENSITIVE TO DEPRESSION OR MENTIONS OF SELF HARM DO NOT READ OR READ CAUTIOUSLY!!! *
Hey guys I freely NEED some requests even if you think they're horrible. I use wattpad and writing as an escape from my unclinically diagnosed severe depression. Today as I was sitting at the table I was being scolded for my grades as I sat there relentlessly crying and unable to talk. My dad bombarded me with questions which in my state I could not answer. All of this happens as I sit trying to breathe already struggling with it because I am sick and feel as though I will pass out with out the anxiety attack/mental breakdown. Anyways after everyone has finished I am still sitting at the table crying and I look over at the sewing box beside me. In it are pins needles scissors, normal sewing stuff. And as I look over at it for the first time in a long while I seriously considered self harm. To my other side is a bag with different hand sanitizer in it I also contemplated the thought of downing them, but did not know if they would kill me or just cause immense pain. So, sorry for bothering all of you with that I hope you don't think this is for publicity or attention, because its NOT. I only want to be distracted. If for some reason I stop posting all together (you may even get a notification from @brrhaga if my situation gets worse) you may assume that I have gotten worse or depending on how serious it gets even possibly taken my own life.