Calthebimess

Me:-sends a recording of my voice to friend- Friend:Omg you sound so dead inside.

My mom:When will you find a nice boy- i mean significant other? Me:-bisexual panic- um idk

Sometimes i forget to take my pills and i feel like people only like me when i'm on pills? Or maybe they hate me even when i'm on pills, idk anymore

I NEED TO TALK TO SOMEBODY?? I ALMOST CUT INTO MY ARMS WITH A GOOD SIZED KNIFE

HAHAHAHA I LOVE THAT I'M DEPRESSED, SUICIDAL AND IRRITABLE AND MY PARENTS ARE MAD AT ME?? I FEEL LIKE THEY'D LIKE IT MORE IF I WAS GONE

I think i'm gonna go off and cut my hair shorter than it already is during my next mental breakdown??? My mind has been yelling at me to do it for a while but i'm not gonna do it while i'm in my right mind most likely so, if when i'm having my next mental breakdown and if i do chop my hair off, my mom'll probably murder me horribly

I'm havign a panic attack

My mom tried to tell me i can talk to her about ANYTHING. Lol, not gonna happen unless she gets fine with me trying to commit suicide a bunch of times real fast

I get to go to therapy tomorrow...wish me luck

Wtf? my mom is worried about me getting pregnant when i like girls a lot more than guys?? like i'll date a guy but i like girls more plus i've never done more than kiss with anybody