[TW:: body issues/insecurities, bullying, suicidal thoughts, thoughts of SH.]
If you saw my last post that I just posted a few minutes ago youll see why im posting this.
I got acne, its on my cheek and upped lip. I look so ugy. I literally have glasses and braces like that one terrible meme, and to top it off with the acne.
I hate my appearance so much. sometimes I imagine myself as someone with perfect vision and teeth, and no acne once so ever, but nope, I just had to be ugly.
Im starting 6th grade in 2 week, which means im going to a new school. Since im starting middle school, this is when sh!t gets real. This is when bullying is potential, especially when youre me who is so ugly and hates their facial appearance.
I wish I wasnt alive anymore, if i had built up enough courage long ago I wouldnt done SH or ended myself already.
Im going to rest now and listen to some music to try and calm myself down, but I know just resting and listening to rock music wont take away my self consciousness. But im trying to do something for myself for once.
Goodnight.