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Please read this.
Guys, you definitely saw the news about Heeseung leaving ENHYPEN. No, it’s not a joke.
I’ve never in my life thought there will be a moment where I wake up in my bed on holidays, right after the night spent in cinema on the WALK THE LINE IN CINEMAS, and read a message like this.
I can’t explain how I feel. The last years, ENHYPEN were my only source of happiness. They healed what I couldn’t, they were there when no one else wasn’t and now it’s gone.
The thought that I went to their concert and saw them all 7 together, the thought that we’re gonna listen to their songs without Heeseung’s voice in it…I’ve never thought that something in me can be broken so easily.
I feel fucking horrible. Horrible for not being there earlier. Horrible for not protecting him more. Horrible for writing stupid sexualizing fanfics about ENHA when Heeseung was maybe thinking about leaving even before Coachella.
It’s insane to look at the walls in my room and see posters of ENHA together everywhere. Insane to vote everyday for them, and then see them all together emotionally on stage when they finally won MAMA awards.
I can’t believe it. Even after I cried for over an hour, I still hope it’s not real.
Whatever happens, I’m gonna support ENHA and Heeseung with the bottom of my heart, even if it hurts. It’s his choice, and I hope he will be happy and other members as well, that’s all I’m asking for.
I thought about posting some chapters, but now I don’t even know if I’ll keep wattpad.
Fanfics is the last thing I want to think about, and I probably won’t be active for a long time.
Maybe I’m overreacting. Maybe nothing happened, and that’s really possible, and Heeseung just wanted to continue as solo.
We didn’t make any mistake, right? We were enough…right? It’s not because of us.
Let’s continue supporting ENHA and our Hee together ENGENES. Let’s not leave, please.
I love you