✨ Nova ✨

Is it weird that I miss having online friends?
          
          Like, I know why I stopped having friends online, but I kinda miss it.

I'm single for the first time in a WHILE and it sucks. Not because being single is inherently bad, if anything being single should be great. 
          
          But when I'm single and I get too far into my own head I have an incredibly strong urge to try to message my ex from highschool despite knowing it would be a horrendously bad idea.
          
          I think it's just because I crave attention, regardless of whether it's good or bad, and in my mind I remember all the attention he gave me and that memory tries to lure me into bad decisions.
          
          Anywhosies guys-

I dunno why, but my college roommates are CONVINCED that I'm secretly a lesbian in denial. (I'm literally dating a man.) 
          
          I tried talking about it with one of my besties figuring someone who actually knows me will be best to vent to, AND THIS BISH AGREED WITH MY ROOMMATES!
          
          AM I MISSING SOMETHING HERE??? LIKE- WHAT????

It's crazy- my whole family has just kinda agreed that even with no diagnosis I'm just the family sociopath.
          
          And when I tried to explain that to my boyfriend he was very confused because I'm apparently too nice to be a sociopath.
          
          Sometimes I forget he didn't know me during highschool when I was actually fucking bonkers. Although it would probably be kinda weird if he had known me when I was in highschool seeing as he's 10 years older than me.
          
          
          (Disclaimer I'm not a sociopath. My family just acts like I am because I was a traumatized moody teenager in highschool. I'm actually a somewhat functioning normal adult.)

Imagine having to set up parental controls for your own Nintendo Switch because your little brother is a sneaky rule breaking bastard.
          
          (I literally had to do this)

WHY DO ALL MY FAVORITE CHARACTERS HAVE TO BE SO OBSCURE THAT I CAN NEVER FIND FICS ABOUT THEM? AND WHEN I DO FIND FICS THEY HAVE BEEN ABANDONED MANY YEARS AGO-
          
          TwT
          
          I'm so sad :(

Y'all- being an adult is cool sometimes I guess.
          
          I got a tattoo!
          
          It's a Rosy Maple Moth on my arm and it's very pretty!
          
          Or at least it would be pretty if it weren't in the healing phase where your skin peels off like you're diseased.

GUESS WHO'S GOING TO COLLEGE-
          
          Well... Again, because last time I left 2 weeks into the semester 
          
          Anyways 
          
          COLLEGE: THE SEQUEL
          
          Hopefully I won't drop out this time
          
          BECAUSE THIS GAL IS GOING TO FILM SCHOOL 

The concept of "coming out" is so weird to me for some reason.
          
          And maybe that's just because technically I didn't ever really "come out" to anyone. Like I never sat down with my family and told them I was bi. The closest thing I had to what people consider coming out was me YEARS AGO being like "Oh yeah, me and my girlfriend-" and nobody questioned it. There was no "So you're gay?" LITERALLY NOTHING.
          
          Well actually now that I think of it, I was telling my boyfriend about the first ever person I dated- who was a girl I went to middle school with- and he was a bit surprised to hear me say "girlfriend". BUT HE STILL BARELY QUESTIONED IT.
          
          Anyways-

@ NotNovaScotia  maybe? But this ability is good thing to change accents tbh in my opinion =]